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March 2, 2021

Storytelling with Dad

Matt Love NSP Meditations

Stories from Dad continue. I find myself needing to have paper and pen handy so I don’t forget to write the nuggets down.

In the early 70s, Dad took a gig during his summer break from teaching in Oregon City to plant trees in the Mt. Hood National Forest. When he showed up, the Forest Ranger, an old friend, put him on a “hippie” crew run by a seasonal male “hippie.” Three of the eight-hippie crew were “hippie chicks” whose tree planting uniform consisted of shorts and halter tops. Not long into the planting session, the females dispensed with the tops and the males removed their shirts, too. Dad stayed fully clothed and was working with his usual determination, when the crew leader came up to him and said, “You need to slow down. We don’t work that fast.”

Dad laughed when he told me this. “It was the 70s! They worked pretty well, but so damn slow.”

During his high school days in Searcy, Arkansas, in 1949/50, he had a beloved English teacher named Miss Thornton, a sort of Emily Dickson, spinster-like educator, who required memorization of poems and taught proper grammar with the same zeal and discipline as Scrooge counted money before the ghosts wised him up.

Dad had Miss Thornton for two periods of English a day and what he most remembered about her was her habit of sipping sherry from a little silver flask stashed in a drawer of her desk.

What? Sherry! At her desk? During class!

I told him this was impossible to believe but he said he witnessed it for himself!

For the sheer helluva of it, I googled Miss Thornton and Arkansas, and sure enough, there she was as were some comments of how demanding she was with the poems and grammar.

Finally, he told me an interesting story of his military service as a combat marine in Korea. One day, two men from some investigative unit of the military or CIA or whatever, showed up at his tent to ask him about his step mother’s parents, who hailed from Russia. He had mentioned it in his enlistment papers and somehow much later, it raised a warning light with some bureaucrat and here the two men were, trying to determine if Dad was some kind of spy or traitor or whatever. It was the Cold War after all, and the age of McCarthyism.

We closed this storytelling session with some poetry and he ripped out some Blake and Tennyson and the insights were more relevant today than they probably were when they were written hundreds of years ago. It must be something special to write a poem or song that is eternal with its insights.

March 1, 2021

Egret and the Homeless

Matt Love NSP Meditations

I was walking through the city at dawn, following a salmon-bearing stream, seeing beaver signs everywhere, admiring ducks and squirrels, when I came across a sort of homeless camp on the fringes of a city park. The camp looked like several mortar rounds had scored a direct hit. Tents flattened. Shit everywhere but not a single person around. I inspected some of the shit and was dumbfounded by the presence of a few items (egg beater, I think?). I was making a mental note of these inexplicable items when I turned my head and beheld an egret off to the side of the carnage, plucking frogs from the mud, mud that used to be a football field but had gone to seed (muck) long ago and no one would ever play football there again.

I was struck by the beauty and grace of the egret in such a bleak setting. It was almost a feeling of blindness to see it. I watched the egret for a few minutes and then continued my walk, hunting for beaverwood and answering the current questions in my life, which are many these days, and utterly new.

February 26, 2021

Some Memories of Lincoln City

Matt Love NSP Meditations, Oregon Coast_History

I was passing through Lincoln City the other rainy day and my mind flooded with all the great experiences I enjoyed in that town, particularly the ones associated with my brief teaching career at Taft High School from 2004-06. In retrospect, it was a teaching gig I should have never left, and I will never forget that impromptu sendoff from the students and the singing of the Titanic theme song in the hallway on my last day. I guess I also won’t forget that moment when a student hurled a book at me when I announced I was resigning. (It missed.)

In my early days as a writer living on the Oregon Coast, I disparaged the town and took my cue from former Oregon Governor Mark Hatfield who dubbed the Lincoln City area in the 1960s as the “twenty miserable miles” because of the terrible and tawdry development along 101.

Yes, there was and is some truth to that statement, but after I started teaching there in 2004, I learned through my own eyes and my students’ writing that there was so much more to the place and that school. I’ve written on these subjects over the years in various publications, but I truly felt a sense of historical vertigo when I rolled past some of my teaching spots, Drift Creek Falls Bridge, Roberts Books, Connie Hansen Garden, Mo’s Beach, Sitka Center, the history museum, Dairy Queen, and the Dorchester House senior living facility where the freshmen English class staged a ten-minute, lunch-time Romeo and Juliet to a wildly appreciative audience. There was also an incredible literary review that nearly got burned up in a censorship dispute and the legendary 2006 poetry slam that I still have on VHS and plan to transfer to YouTube soon. What talent at that show! We also started a newspaper at Taft, The 45th Parallel, that had some truly astonishing writing and creative minds.

I met some of the most special and important people of my life in Lincoln City. They will always be with me. And well, nearby Hart’s Cove on Cascade Head is where I have always known I will end my sentient life.

February 25, 2021

Oregon Tavern Age: A Portland Joint

Matt Love NSP Meditations, Oregon Tavern Age

I sat at a table far, far, away from the bar, where two OTA men sat and watched meaningless sports on television.

In walked three kids in hip urban attire. They ordered IPAs and repaired to the outdoor area to talk about god knows what.

This was a new joint to me. It had somehow weathered the Pandemic and it made me wonder how many had not, particularly on the Oregon Coast where my fascination with OTA life began. I’ve been thinking a lot about the end of OTA country, how late-stage Trump killed all the great storytelling because the storytellers were drunk on Trump hate and anger and talked of nothing else. Then of course, the virus hit, and closed the joints, and then when they returned, the talk was all of virus hoaxes and totalitarianism. Talk about boring! Here and there a story emerged, but they were rare. I fear they are about to go extinct.

Would Portland-area OTA joints pick up the story slack with the demise of coastal Oregon OTA?

In several visits since the virus rules loosened up, they had not. Dead, deader than a Republican Senator’s soul.

Okay, so this Rose City joint still had its fake flocked Christmas tree lit up (a few feet away) and it was late February, but I couldn’t generate any more than a sentence about that.

I did meet Rhonda the striking blonde bartender in the leopard-print top and face mask (sadly no pillbox hat or there would have been a story!) and she gave me the dope on the joint and its survival.

A man wearing gray sweatpants and a gray sweatshirt entered with a black poodle. He ordered a beer and wanted to play the slots machines but Rhonda nixed that and the man protested it was a service dog and he was within his rights to drink beer and gamble with his dog (named Blaine) at his side. Rhonda didn’t budge and the man and Blaine headed outside to a picnic table.

As I sat near the Christmas tree, I wondered if this really was the end of my OTA writing. Even writing this piece felt forced and fatiguing.

Was it really the end of an era? All eras end. That’s their very nature. But if it truly is the end, does a participant truly recognize the end during the moment? It may have already passed for OTA and this is all mere obituary stuff.

February 23, 2021

Corona Virus Thoughts #22

Matt Love Corona Virus Thoughts, NSP Meditations

500k dead. Vaccine roll out botched in Oregon and my faith in Oregon governing has been shaken, if not shattered. But at least one of our political parties tries to govern and believes people in governing should actually govern and not deride governing when they are the government.

I still can’t schedule a vaccine appointment for my 89-year old father. I tried again today at 5:30 in the morning online and on the phone. Nothing. I could go on about the OHA web site and the various categories of people/workers…and I won’t…go on. There is no point. It doesn’t help to berate.

More stories have surfaced about the rich and famous jumping the line for vaccines. Business as usual in America. John Rockefeller paid someone to take his place when he was drafted in the Civil War and Bill Clinton rode out the Vietnam War with his cushy student deferment.

Dad and I were watching local TV news the other day and stared in disbelief as the perky announcers broadcast a story of a Portland-area teenager and her mother who were trapped in Texas because of the ice storm. They were trapped there because they had flown to Texas together to participate in a teenage beauty pageant (do they still call them beauty pageants?) that attracted contestants from all over the country.

Let me add to this: they traveled to to Texas DURING A PANDEMIC and IN WINTER to compete (is that the word?) in such a competition.

The mother and daughter did a Zoom interview with the news station and were PISSED. They were AGGREIVED. They were PUT OUT and SUFFERING and just wanted out to get back home.

The announcers empathized with the mother and daughter and never once thought to ask them why they made such a useless, superficial and potentially dangerous trip during the Pandemic. If the announcers were journalists, they might have.

If anything symbolizes the selfishness, entitlement and immaturity of certain people during a national emergency, it is this event. “Give me my nail job or give me death!”

I wonder when the day will come when I stop writing about the Pandemic because it won’t be a story anymore? How many Americans will have died by then because of sheer idiocy practiced by so many Americans and shoddy governing. Remember when Jared Kushner was in charge of the Trump Administration’s virus response team? There ought to be criminal charges connected to that appointment or at least a slew of civil suits.

February 22, 2021

Watching A Depoe Bay Storm

Matt Love NSP Meditations, Oregon Coast_History

The waves smash the rocks. Gulls lift and cry. It is Sunday morning in Depoe Bay and I watch a big storm.

I think to a marker I saw yesterday in a Depoe Bay park commemorating the death of a young woman who left a Chinese restaurant bar on Highway 101 one night a few years ago after having drinks with her grandmother, and ended up dead and fished out of the ocean very soon thereafter. According to news reports I read online of the event, there were no suspicions of foul play.

So why? How? Suicide or accident? Death by daredevil? There was nothing else in the news about the death that I could find. Was there more to this story of a death of a 22-year old woman on the Oregon Coast after having drinks with her grandmother in a Chinese restaurant bar? It seems like there is is, but perhaps that’s just a writer’s conceit.

I’ll bet the sock shop on the drag is open and someone is buying socks during the storm.

I don’t visit Depoe Bay very often, but there have been some memorable times here over the years, in the cedar grove, at the wall watching whales, and meeting a man in a dive bar who was an extra during the filming of the charter boat fishing scene for One Flew Over the Cuckoo’s Nest, filmed in Depoe Bay in 74 or 75. The man told me Jack Nicholson and the rest of the cast were kicked out of every bar in Depoe Bay for rowdy drinking and cocaine use, and back then, there were about a dozen bars around town.

Good ol’ Jack. We just don’t get those kind of madcap stories in Oregon anymore and I find that sad.

It’s a wall of gray outside except for a few tinges of green on the waves.

I sit near a sliding glass door and rain is finding its way in through the frame at multiple angles. I should write a poem about this door. It’s calling out for one. It presents so many metaphors. Or I could just write a poem about the door without metaphors. Doors deserve poems, too. Even badly installed ones.

I’ve got some decent coffee in a white mug as I write this and watch the storm and think.

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Teacher of the Year: A Novella

By Matt Love

A reluctant teacher becomes advisor to a moribund high school newspaper. He meets the new editor, a dynamic 18-year-old senior, and together they begin a unique creative collaboration that revives the publication and slowly slides into gray areas. As the poet Octavio Paz wrote, “To realize itself, love must violate the rules of our world...committed by two stars that break out of the conception of love, which implies breaking away and a catastrophe..."

Teacher of the Year
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Teacher of the Year unfolds in an energetic mixture of epistle, stream-of-consciousness, narrative and meditations on the craft and alchemy of teaching. There is no other more authentic literary exploration into the agonies and ecstasies of teaching in the annals of American literature than this novella.


A Substantial but Incomplete Autobiography in Poems

By Matt Love

In perhaps the largest, most eclectic volume of previously unpublished poetry in the history of Pacific Northwest literature, Matt Love presents 148 poems written over a 30-year span.

As he writes in the introduction to A Substantial but Incomplete Autobiography in Poems, “I have organized this collection into six categories: Ocean, Love, My Life, Oregon Tavern Age, Homelessness, Probation. These poems serve as a substantial but incomplete autobiography.”

“Confessionals, odes, scatological doggerel, polemics, tankas, haiku, prose, psalms, requiems, observations, love letters, lamentations, lyrics, stream of consciousness, meditations, lists, riffs, a eulogy, a sermon, a commencement speech, found poetry, tributes, elegies. I threw it all into an ancient cement mixer and hand cranked that concrete beast while watching blue herons undulate overhead and drinking red wine as the husky snoozed in his dirt fort. The result: A Substantial but Incomplete Autobiography in Poems, something merging where Charles Bukowski, Richard Hugo, Mary Oliver and Liz Phair blend together.”

None of Love's poems were ever submitted to poetry journals, contests or magazines, making this collection a true renegade project of passion and readable to any denizen of a coastal dive bar.

A Substantial but Incomplete Autobiography in Poems

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