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November 28, 2019

Tire Center Christmas (Part 2)

Matt Love Fiction, NSP Meditations

A commotion shook the waiting room. One of the men rolling a tire slipped on the floor and sent it crashing into the Nativity scene. Figurines went flying everywhere, smashing into metal rims and windows. The Three Wise Men splintered. The Virgin Mary pulverized. Baby Jesus was dead.

The Writer looked up. He slipped off his headphones. What the hell is going on? I’m trying to write about the world but the world is interrupting me goddammit!

He saw a young woman wearing threadbare white yoga pants and a black hoodie with the hood pulled over her head as she slumped against the counter. The counter seemed to be holding her up. Two small girls wearing furry coats over cartoon-character pajamas rolled around on the floor behind her.

The woman, stick thin, medium height, was talking to a serious man behind the counter. The man was shaking his head, and at some point the woman removed her hood and Rapunzel-like hair, blazing red, fell down past her waist. As she talked, she reached around and twisted her hair in a ponytail.

To the Writer’s left a cleanup crew was sweeping up the Nativity scene and readying it for the garbage.

The Writer kept watching the conversation but still hadn’t removed his headphones. The counter man shook his head more vigorously, his brow tightened, and the woman turned sharply to her children and said something stern to them. The Writer saw the woman’s face: narrow, hollow, angry, scarred, spent.

She snapped back to the counter man. She released the ponytail. Counter man eased away and she was alone. She stood there for a few seconds then slid down to the floor. Her children crawled over to her and she embraced them. She was sobbing, but not making a sound.

The Writer set down his tablet. He removed his headphones. He scanned the waiting room. No one was looking at the woman.

He was, now. He was staring at a pile of a family huddled together on the floor of a corporate tire center and it was Christmas Eve.

A strange clicking noise arrested the Writer’s attention. He turned around and could see rain hitting the windows and freezing on impact. The temperature had dropped that one degree. In ninety minutes, virtually no one would be driving the streets of Lincoln City except idiots and emergency service vehicles.

The Writer glanced at the clock. Almost 2 p.m. He checked to see if his vehicle had been moved from the parking lot into one of the service bays. It had not. It didn’t matter. He could slip and slide home. He only lived a few blocks from the center, in a cozy cottage. Both the cottage and the Airstream afforded magnificent views of the ocean and the Writer spent mornings and evenings watching the waves with his coffee or wine. If the literary mood struck him, and it usually did, he listed all the metaphors the ocean provided his writing. New ones arrived every morning on the incoming tide. They sold like hotcakes to the Druid and Sufi magazines.

He stood up to leave. Warranty service could wait a few days. He gathered up his things and headed for the door. The Writer would have to pass mere inches from the the pile to leave. He checked out the waiting room. Fox News was outfoxing Americans with a stacked fox to hate other human beings.

The Writer began walking toward the pile. The pile didn’t look up. They usually don’t.

There was no metaphor in the pile. It was a pile of an Oregon family. An Oregon family teetered in a crisis the Writer couldn’t possibly understand, but he did know how to employ the precious verb teeter.

But as a writer he was supposed to try and understand the pile. A writer can’t begin to try unless he or she engages with the world, and not just with sentences. Curiosity. Conversation. Move. Movement. Write it up later or not. Do it to give a shit, not for the story.

Doesn’t a human pile right in front of you demand action? At the very least, curiosity? Who gives a shit whether you’re a writer or not? Act. It’s Christmas Eve for chrissakes! Act like it’s Christmas Eve every day of the year! If we all did that, it might be Christmas year round and people wouldn’t want to kill themselves at Christmas.

Dickens had his ghosts. Saul had his shining light on the road to Damascus. The Grinch heard Whoville sing. One Oregon writer got his epiphany when his wife called him out for being rude to a checker in a grocery store. The checker was being a decent human being and talking to an elderly woman, making her day, and therefore holding up the line. That irritated the writer. His wife kicked his heart’s ass and he never again acted rude to a checker for being a decent human being.

No outside intervention was coming to the Writer, supernatural or otherwise. He would have to discover it within. If it wasn’t there, he would have to make it up from scratch, with the ingredients at hand, with no recipe to guide him.

What were those ingredients at hand?

November 27, 2019

Tire Center Christmas (Part 1)

Matt Love Fiction, NSP Meditations oregon christmas tales

A Writer waited in a corporate tire center for a warranty service he didn’t comprehend. He knew nothing of tires. In fact, he’d never changed a tire in his life.

As he waited, he polished an essay for a slick Zen magazine about noble, silent caring for the world. In his case, caring meant accommodating honeybees building a hive in a wheel well of a vintage Airstream that served as his irony-free writing studio. The essay’s payoff was the delicious ending where he harvested the honey, slathered it on butter he churned himself, and the biscuits made from scratch. Anyone could do it. They just had to notice, care and act. Action.

The Writer didn’t churn butter. He made biscuits from a box. He would never harvest the Airstream honey nor any honey. It didn’t matter. The essay would move hearts and minds, serve the greater good, the larger cause. He, along with many other writers, felt perfectly comfortable making things up, because, well, most writers practice empathy on the page and never in real life. It’s really easy that way.

It was the early afternoon of December 24th in Lincoln City on the Oregon Coast. Outside the tire center, a near freezing rain fell. If the temperature dropped another degree, everybody’s Christmas would be shot to icy hell. They’d have to spend the holiday alone or seek out strangers within sliding distance and break figgy pudding with them.

He sat next to a big window overlooking the parking lot. Needles of rain battered the glass. The lot was full. The center was packed. Twas the season for new tires, tire repair, tire rotations, studded tires. Young men in coverall uniforms wearing Santa hats and reindeer horns ran around, rolling tires, checking with customers, trying to expedite service and get people moving on their merry way. It was all sort of a festive madhouse, but those in the waiting room were oblivious because everyone, including small children, fiddled on their devices. Coloring was dead. No talking. No eye contact. No reading magazines. No one even watched Fox News blasting out commentary defending the President’s mocking of a quadriplegic liberal reporter falling out of her wheelchair at a rally because one of the President’s fanatics tipped it over. It was really funny. She’d shit herself, too.

A fake Christmas tree, fresh cedar bows and a myrtlewood Nativity scene atop a straw-filled monster truck tire comprised the holiday decorations. Free coffee simmered on a warmer but nobody cared because everyone sipped sweet $9 holiday espresso concoctions and thought they tasted swell. Drip coffee was dead.

The essay was going well. Words like dappled and glinted flowed effortlessly from tapping his fancy tablet. He had no problem tuning out the chaos of the tire center because he was listening to classic country Christmas music on headphones. He had no idea what was going on around him. He knew everything the essay needed to sing, to soar, and earn him a tidy three grand and a free week long retreat at a Buddhist compound in the Wallowa Mountains. He wasn’t even a Buddhist! During the retreat, he’d write an essay about gathering wild lavender in a nearby Native American cemetery and making peasant lemonade from it. He’d sell that essay lickety-split to a glossy magazine extolling the gritty virtues of peasant life.

Oh what a Christmas Eve it was going to be in Lincoln City! His Yoga instructor girlfriend was driving over the hills and through the woods from Portland for a tasteful bacchanal, and his fans had bought thousands of his books, $19.99 softcover tomes exuding the benefits of practicing empathy. The books were purchased as gifts to instill caring. No one would read them. But they would Instagram the holy living shit out of the book’s cover and let all their world know they were kicking ass making the world a better place. Instagram makes it so easy.

November 24, 2019

Gettin’ OTA Out

Matt Love NSP Meditations, Oregon Tavern Age

It is an axiom of my writing life that whenever I publish a book about a specific subject (not a memoir or novel) the better stories about the subject emerge after the books come out. This happened with Vortex, the Blazers, Yaquina Bay Bridge, Sometimes a Great Movie and the rain book.

So it is true with Oregon Tavern Age as I distribute it around Oregon in the most haphazard fashion. It’s in bars, gas stations, bookstores, coffee shops, a bowling alley, a laundromat, etc. I heard an incredible story in a dive bar in Reedsport about the owner. He annually buys a dozen or so frozen turkeys and then strings them up in snags in some burned over clearcut outside of town. The OTA regulars show up with rifles and beer and booze and then they have a competition where marksmen try to hit the string and drop the turkey. You do that, you get the turkey. You get nothing for hitting the turkey.

You scoff? I saw the pictures on a slide show on an OTA’s Ipad. He was there!

Don’t get no more Oregon than this!

Help me get OTA out!

November 22, 2019

On Charles Dickens’ Storage Unit

Matt Love NSP Meditations

A legal notice informs the public that a storage company in the middle of nowhere will auction the contents of several units with rents long, long overdue.

At the the top of the auction list is one Charles Dickens and his 6′ by 14′ unit. At an appointed time, the bay to the unit will be rolled up and thirty minutes later, after an inspection of the contents, the auction for the possessions of Charles Dickens will begin. The winner must claim and remove all contents from the unit or the sale is forfeit.

A writer reads the notice in a podunk paper over cheap coffee. It intrigues and gives him rich food for thought on a mediocre day of a a mediocre week. Think of that name! Why was he named Charles Dickens? Mom or Dad’s idea? Maybe where they coupling while watching the Christmas Carol. Did he actually read Dickens or at least see the movies? Is he dead or disappeared into the slums or factories? Are there Charles Dickens novels in the unit? A fancy hardback, embossed set with woodcut illustrations? Did he transport to the future to put his shit in storage for some unknown cosmic use, and somehow got stuck in time and couldn’t pay his fees?

The writer decides he will attend the auction for the sheer literary hell of it. He senses that the real Charles Dickens has something to do with it. The writer will bring cash. He’s never attended an auction. Anything could happen.

November 21, 2019

Hacksville (A Hack Poem)

Matt Love NSP Meditations, Poetry

To be or not to be,

that wasn’t Hamlet’s question.

He wasn’t a hack.

He didn’t even have a job,

a mediocre one performed

with hack mediocrity,

a necessary requirement

to earn a ticket to Hacksville.

Can you be really excellent at being a hack?

Today, the verb hack, as in computer hacking,

is so daring and dangerous.

Wasting away, again, in Hacksville,

searching for my lost shaker of spine,

some people claim that it’s a woman to blame,

but I know,

it’s my own damn fault.

November 18, 2019

Secret Coast Radio 11

Matt Love NSP Meditations, secret coast radio

Welcome to the Secret Coast Radio podcast broadcasting somewhere on the Secret Coast

Let us begin by saying:

We prefer the first person plural over the singular.

We prefer mystery over journalism.

We prefer rescue attempts, no matter seemingly how futile, over never trying.

We prefer generous people over skinflints.

We prefer rain over fire.

We prefer the Doobie Brothers over the Doobie Brothers Show.

We prefer cabin hideaways without wi-fi over ones with high speed connections.

We prefer studying history over studying code.

We prefer kids playing horse on cracked concrete courts over lacrosse on fake grass fields.

We prefer honoring veterans with better services for veterans over offering them 10% off a mattress or free biscuits and gravy.

We prefer manifestos written in sand over those written in blood.

We prefer paying independent artists for their words, images and sounds over ripping them off.

We prefer newspapers with editorial content over ones with nothing but advertisements.

We prefer reaching out and engaging with the growing and increasingly strange homeless population over just shaking our heads and attributing their condition to capitalism.

We prefer vehicles with mufflers over ones that wake up the dead.

We prefer board games over board rooms.

We prefer terrycloth shorts over silk suits.

What is this podcast about? Who are we?

Like we said, mystery over journalism.

Let show number 11 begin.

The link to the show is:

http://www.buzzsprout.com/385945

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Teacher of the Year: A Novella

By Matt Love

A reluctant teacher becomes advisor to a moribund high school newspaper. He meets the new editor, a dynamic 18-year-old senior, and together they begin a unique creative collaboration that revives the publication and slowly slides into gray areas. As the poet Octavio Paz wrote, “To realize itself, love must violate the rules of our world...committed by two stars that break out of the conception of love, which implies breaking away and a catastrophe..."

Teacher of the Year
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Teacher of the Year unfolds in an energetic mixture of epistle, stream-of-consciousness, narrative and meditations on the craft and alchemy of teaching. There is no other more authentic literary exploration into the agonies and ecstasies of teaching in the annals of American literature than this novella.


A Substantial but Incomplete Autobiography in Poems

By Matt Love

In perhaps the largest, most eclectic volume of previously unpublished poetry in the history of Pacific Northwest literature, Matt Love presents 148 poems written over a 30-year span.

As he writes in the introduction to A Substantial but Incomplete Autobiography in Poems, “I have organized this collection into six categories: Ocean, Love, My Life, Oregon Tavern Age, Homelessness, Probation. These poems serve as a substantial but incomplete autobiography.”

“Confessionals, odes, scatological doggerel, polemics, tankas, haiku, prose, psalms, requiems, observations, love letters, lamentations, lyrics, stream of consciousness, meditations, lists, riffs, a eulogy, a sermon, a commencement speech, found poetry, tributes, elegies. I threw it all into an ancient cement mixer and hand cranked that concrete beast while watching blue herons undulate overhead and drinking red wine as the husky snoozed in his dirt fort. The result: A Substantial but Incomplete Autobiography in Poems, something merging where Charles Bukowski, Richard Hugo, Mary Oliver and Liz Phair blend together.”

None of Love's poems were ever submitted to poetry journals, contests or magazines, making this collection a true renegade project of passion and readable to any denizen of a coastal dive bar.

A Substantial but Incomplete Autobiography in Poems

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