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March 5, 2025

Guitar Case

Matt Love NSP Meditations

Elmer the husky and I cruised the neighborhood in the late morning on a dry weekday. We’ve just started our second year together and his salubrious effects on my mental and physical health continue to pile up.

Elmer stopped and seemingly prepared to take a Ted Cruz. It was then I noticed a hardshell guitar case a few feet away on the curb.

The Ted Cruz was a no go so I walked Elmer over to the case.

It was a classic, a beauty: a tan hardshell case from the 70s. Ovation was lettered on both sides. Ovation, the famed round-bottomed acoustic guitars. A professional’s case, scratched and scuffed from endless gigging.

Not a sticker on it.

Was the guitar inside? No way! It couldn’t possibly in there. No one gives away an Ovation guitar on the street.

A homeowner obviously set the case outside to give it away. Maybe rock had died for him as it had for me many years ago. Maybe the guitar player died and his partner wanted it gone. I went through a dozen scenarios of the case’s appearance on the curb.

I had to see if the guitar was inside. If it was in there, I was taking it home and would start playing the guitar again.

Empty!

Still it was such a fantastic case, living antique, and better than the generic black hardshell case securing my guitar, one I never play anymore.

Or I would give it to my special musician friend, a singer songwriter who should be on the charts (are their still charts?) but got waylaid by life. Her time will come.

I picked up the case by the handle. What balance! It practically glided in the air.

No, I couldn’t take it. I knew within minutes a homeless man or woman would come along and put it to non-guitar use, a kind of rock and roll suitcase to transport possessions and keep them dry as they kept on surviving or however they defined it.

I set the case down on the curb. Elmer and I walked away.

The next morning the case was gone.

March 3, 2025

Kaiser ER

Matt Love NSP Meditations, Poetry

Dad fell again.

I wait in a room,

surrounded by broken bodies

broken by a broken nation.

On the drive here,

I saw a dozen men,

misshapen, homeless,

static or meandering among intersections,

candidates for car crashes

or falling down and dying.

Outside a window,

moss and English ivy

degrade a brick wall,

but look ornamental,

kind of like

American culture at work.

I wait to see

the tattooed ER doctor again,

the one who sketched

Dad’s heart problem

on a brochure

announcing a prize

for the best care

bestowed by a nurse,

nominated by a patient

or member of the family.

The doctor said he should

have sketched the heart

on a tablet,

but the tablet was gone,

paper appeared,

so why not put paper to use?

I also wait to see the

Russian nurse with a chin

shaped like the clip of

a Kalashnikov rifle,

a blonde woman

ripped from a fancy perfume ad,

who reacts to my questions

with indifference so smooth and subtle

it makes me smile.

If you can smile

awaiting news of your father’s fate,

well, take it.

I’m going to nominate her:

“Never before in a moment of crisis has

a sullen disposition tasted so sweet.”

Where will the news convey Dad,

convey me?

When I see Dad again

I know his first words:

“Call Dr. Kevorkian please.”

I’ll laugh.

He’s not joking.

Then he’ll say:

“I’m going to walk into the river.”

It’s too far away, though,

too rough and muddy

from the storm

to complete

the poem of his long life

that began in the Dust Bowl.

February 25, 2025

A Husky Checks Into…

Matt Love NSP Meditations, Poetry

A husky checked into the Heathman Hotel.

A valet led the dog inside.

Right behind, his owners

dragged shiny luggage,

laughing.

To the left,

legs in knee-high, striped socks

protruded from a blue tent.

To the right,

a bundled mass

of a knitted sweater

slumped over,

ass exposed.

A block away,

two Burmese mountain dogs

checked into the Benson Hotel

as a man rode by carrying a bag of cans.

February 24, 2025

Oregon Tavern Age: Return to the Triangle Tavern

Matt Love Astoria, NSP Meditations, Oregon Tavern Age

Super Bowl Sunday. Noon. I stashed Elmer in the car and walked into one of the greatest OTA joints in the state—Astoria’s venerable Triangle Tavern, right underneath the south end of the Megler Bridge, not far from where people splat when they jump off the bridge.

I hadn’t visited the joint in over a decade. At one point, I thought I might never return but the Triangle had played such a pivotal role in my creative and personal coastal life that the OTA gods demanded a reunion.

Stepping inside, it took all of few seconds to realize that nothing had changed. A female OTA bartender busied herself near the kitchen. An OTA man nursed a beer at the bar. An OTA zombie played a slot machine. Classic rock blared from the speakers. A shit Super Bowl pre-game show aired silently on the flatscreens. The wooden beer fridge looked as good as gold.

I ordered a red ale. I repaired to my favorite place to write in OTA country, the Triangle’s back table with views of the bridge and Columbia River. (My second favorite place is the window table at the Sea Star in Gold Beach.)

How many thousands upon thousands of words had I written at this table? I’d also drank beer here with some of the most important women in my life and you know who you are.

I started writing in my journal and then stood up to walk over to the place where eons ago a bartender framed all of my published writing about the Triangle and bolted it to the wall. It was never coming down until they razed the joint and when they do, Astoria is dead, or more likely, gone the way of Cannon Beach.

It brings me monumental pride knowing that I can boast of being the only Oregon writer alive who has a framed display of his writing about a dive bar mounted on a wall in that dive bar. In fact, this might be the only such display in the history of Oregon! Top that Ernest Hemingway and you’re boring clean, well lighted place!

I read some riffs from my old pieces and then returned to the back table where I began writing in my journal again.

The OTA man at the bar yelled out to me, “Hey! You writing a novel or a journal?”

“A journal,” I yelled back.

“I’m going to start one.”

“It’s great for your mental health,” said the man, me, who has written more than 200 journals since that first one in 1979, millions of words that no one will ever read.

“Yeah, you only get one life and you need that mental health to do it right.”

“Amen brother,” I said.

February 19, 2025

The Starbucks Shakes

Matt Love NSP Meditations

Two homeless men in their early 20s stood at the counter of a Starbucks. I stood behind them. No one was else was in the joint. In a few minutes I would meet a writing client to discuss his manuscript.

The men attempted to order some fancy drinks. I say “attempted” because their speech was nearly unintelligible. One gibbered, the other jabbered. One was using a gift card, one was on his knees digging through his backpack hunting for change. The kneeling man shook back and forth.

He began removing the contents of his backpack: electric power drill, charger, duct tape and other assorted items. I noticed a can of hairspray. (Homeless men use hairspray? Both of these men had shaved heads! A new drug fad?)

The hunt for change was proving fruitless. He had 50 pennies spread across the counter, a few nickels and dimes. He kept shaking.

It was taking forever but the female barista was kind, patient and counted up the total as it accumulated.

The man stood up from the floor and faced the barista. I pulled a buck from my wallet and placed it on the counter.

“Hey brother,” I said, “Let me help you out.”

He took the bill and pushed it in with the change. He did not turn around or say anything. He was still shaking.

His drink was some kind of oatmeal coffee concoction with whipping cream.

As he waited, shaking, he put everything back in his backpack. His buddy took his drink and moved away.

The concoction arrived. The man grasped it, walked up to his friend, and said they had three minutes to catch the bus across a busy road. They had to get moving.

They moved. I saw a homeless man running with an oatmeal coffee drink topped with whipping cream with a power tool and hairspray in has backpack.

I watched them jog cross the street. Oatmeal drink man didn’t spill a drop.

The bus showed up and they disappeared into it.

A half an hour later, as I was leaving, I told the barista how well she handled the two men and showed extraordinary kindness and patience. She looked genuinely shocked to hear my compliment.

“Thank you so much,” she said.

“I notice these things,” I said. “More people should.”

“I agree. Thanks again.”

I was driving home when it hit me: why in the hell didn’t you tip her?

February 17, 2025

Snow, E.B. White and a Bloody Mary

Matt Love NSP Meditations

Snow started falling at the dog park at 7 in the morning and Elmer the husky went bonkers.

By the time we arrived home, an inch had accumulated on the ground and the wind was whipping the snow into a frenzy.

I fed Elmer and repaired to the couch to read a collection of E.B. White’s essays. I always learn something new about writing when I read White.

It was rapidly becoming a snow day, so I made myself a bloody mary. Why not?

Elmer sacked out for all of five minutes and then jumped on the couch and stared out the window to watch the snow. Then he started barking at me. He wanted outside! I hadn’t finished my damn drink!

We bounded out to the back yard and played football in the snow. Elmer retrieved passes and tried to tackle me as I ran wild like Gale Sayers, and even stiff armed him away a few times.

Playtime ended and we went back inside, Elmer reluctantly. I had to coax him with a treat.

I sat down on the couch to read and finish my bloody mary.

Five minutes later Elmer was barking at me. He wanted to go for a walk!

Why not? It was a snow day and he’s a husky!

We hit the streets and by now, three inches had accumulated. Elmer began going nuts, nosing snow up into the air, and zigging and zagging. I could barely hold onto the leash!

We walked and ran for a couple of miles and checked out the beaver lodge in the park. I dearly wanted to see the beaver gliding in the creek as snow fell.

It didn’t happen.

Back in the house, I finished m bloody mary and dove into E.B. White. A little epiphany struck as I read: an idea to publish a book I finished writing in 2009 but never published. It is called One Man’s Beach and named after White’s collection of essays called One Man’s Meat, a book that exerted a tremendous effect on me when I read it while serving as a caretaker of a wildlife refuge.

Perhaps One Man’s Beach is dated, but it features some great photographs and important essays about Oregon’s legacy of publicly-owned beaches. Why not put it out there as an e-book?

After that epiphany, I sat up, and Elmer came over and gave me that look. He wanted to go out again!

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Teacher of the Year: A Novella

By Matt Love

A reluctant teacher becomes advisor to a moribund high school newspaper. He meets the new editor, a dynamic 18-year-old senior, and together they begin a unique creative collaboration that revives the publication and slowly slides into gray areas. As the poet Octavio Paz wrote, “To realize itself, love must violate the rules of our world...committed by two stars that break out of the conception of love, which implies breaking away and a catastrophe..."

Teacher of the Year
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Teacher of the Year unfolds in an energetic mixture of epistle, stream-of-consciousness, narrative and meditations on the craft and alchemy of teaching. There is no other more authentic literary exploration into the agonies and ecstasies of teaching in the annals of American literature than this novella.


A Substantial but Incomplete Autobiography in Poems

By Matt Love

In perhaps the largest, most eclectic volume of previously unpublished poetry in the history of Pacific Northwest literature, Matt Love presents 148 poems written over a 30-year span.

As he writes in the introduction to A Substantial but Incomplete Autobiography in Poems, “I have organized this collection into six categories: Ocean, Love, My Life, Oregon Tavern Age, Homelessness, Probation. These poems serve as a substantial but incomplete autobiography.”

“Confessionals, odes, scatological doggerel, polemics, tankas, haiku, prose, psalms, requiems, observations, love letters, lamentations, lyrics, stream of consciousness, meditations, lists, riffs, a eulogy, a sermon, a commencement speech, found poetry, tributes, elegies. I threw it all into an ancient cement mixer and hand cranked that concrete beast while watching blue herons undulate overhead and drinking red wine as the husky snoozed in his dirt fort. The result: A Substantial but Incomplete Autobiography in Poems, something merging where Charles Bukowski, Richard Hugo, Mary Oliver and Liz Phair blend together.”

None of Love's poems were ever submitted to poetry journals, contests or magazines, making this collection a true renegade project of passion and readable to any denizen of a coastal dive bar.

A Substantial but Incomplete Autobiography in Poems

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