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February 12, 2026

Hope is Kindled

Matt Love Coos Bay, NSP Meditations

Elmer and I cruised by the remains of the encampment. I estimated it would require four 12-yard dumpsters to hold all the garbage, including a mattress and couch.

And a lot of people to haul the garbage out of what amounted to a pulverized wetlands to the dumpsters stationed at the boat ramp, 200-300 yards away.

That is, if the city or county or some other governmental or non profit entity paid for the dumpsters. And someone or some group or agency organized and promoted a cleanup of the area.

And if someone invited and/or recruited the homeless people in the area to assist in the effort.

It was 1:30 in the afternoon, sunny, cold. A low tide allowed us to traverse the entire stretch of my local Coos Bay beach.

I heard a harmonica in the encampment! A flute, guitar and fiddle over the years of observing and interacting with the homeless, but this way my first harmonica. I didn’t recognize the tune; maybe the player was improvising. Had to be a blues riff considering the context. I told myself that after our romp, if the harmonica was still playing when we walked past, I was going to call out to the performer and offer five bucks for a performance. If Elmer heard a harmonica up close he would go berserk—in a good way.

The player came partially into view. He was a white-haired man wearing a red hoodie. I also saw a young homeless woman who formerly lived out of a sedan with her two dogs, but now was on foot, still with the dogs, and roaming around the neighborhood. In recent weeks I’d seen her sleeping on this very beach in the mornings, with one blanket, and temperatures in the high 30s.

Elmer and I horseassed in the sand for 500 yards, then turned around and headed for home. I was giddy at the prospect of a harmonica performance. If somehow “Turkey in the Straw” or “On Top of Old Smoky” emerged, my walled would be emptied.

I looked north down the beach toward the encampment. Something odd was happening that baffled me. Then I made it out.

Two people were carrying the mattress over their heads! What the hell? Well, at least a homeless person would have a decent bed for a spell and the mattress wouldn’t go totally to waste.

More movement appeared near the encampment, strange movement.

It hit me. A cleanup of the encampment was underway! I hadn’t heard a damn thing about it. No poster. No flier. No press release in the corporate rag. If I’d known, I would have left Elmer at home, pitched in, and met the folks who had organized it. These are the kind of connections I must start establishing in my new community.

Elmer and I picked up the pace so I could meet some of the volunteers and discover the nature of this event—and when the next one was being held.

In due course, I met two couples who live on the edge of Coos Bay, in the Empire District. One couple had lived there for 35 years! Both couples remarked about Elmer’s handsome appearance and said they often saw us from their living room windows romping down the beach. One woman even had a name for Elmer—Snowball!

They were members of an Empire improvement association and had organized the cleanup. I asked why there were no posters or fliers to advertise the event. They said it was promoted on social media.

About a dozen people were participating in the two-hour cleanup, including some kids with their parents. The effort had been underway for almost an hour. The volunteers would barely put a dent in the garbage, but it was a start and at least I wouldn’t have to see the mattress, couch and one computer monitor anymore.

I asked about next event and offered to assist with the promotion, design a poster, and tack it up around the area. They seemed delighted. I was also was invited to attend the next meeting of the improvement association. That was something I might consider, although at this point in my life I abhor the thought of sitting through meetings with agendas and jargon.

But sometimes that’s how you get important work done. My nation does not often change for the better with only freelancers working in stealth at the margins.

It was time for the couples to return to work and for me to walk Elmer home. I wouldn’t be able to return before the cleanup ended to help out. I had a final question for the two couples: when did the severe nature of the homeless crisis first appear around the boat ramp and Empire in general? Approximately 2014-15. Over a decade later and it’s getting worse.

Before I left, I looked around for the harmonica man and the young woman. I assumed they would be hanging around, helping out. Why the assumption? I had no idea.

They were gone. And something about that irritated me.

February 10, 2026

Empire Strikes Back

Matt Love Coos Bay, NSP Meditations

Seven months in residence, Empire had started souring on me: miscreant neighbors, chained, howling dogs, multiple near-attack level encounters with loose vicious dogs and their dumbshit owners, human grotesqueries, and shattering scenes of homelessness, including men and women in their 70s, possibly 80s.

Elmer rousted me from reading a French mystery on the back patio. He wanted to move. I leashed him, stashed a folding knife in my pocket, and we ventured out for a walk.

I chose the sloping, unpaved and potholed “street” that ran behind my house. A quick roll call of what I would observe: abandoned and dilapidated houses, rusted boats, broken trailers, RVs, busses, trucks, forklifts that were never moving again, more boats, and other shit strewn and splayed in yards.

I had to stay alert on this route. It was not like a beach walk where you can release your mind to the ocean and dive into the creative mind.

Something white and shiny to my right caught my eye. We headed toward it.

It was a new street library! Days or weeks old. Someone in Empire had erected one of the finest and most spacious street libraries I’d ever encountered in Oregon and I am an expert on such structures.

How in the name of John Steinbeck had a homeowner built such a marvel in this place, undoubtedly the most unlikeliest locale in Oregon for a street library or the entire United States for that matter?

It couldn’t possibly exist here, but here it was, because one of my neighbors gives a shit about Empire.

I checked the stock—a few crap thrillers, bodice rippers and kids’ books. The cupboard was definitely bare.

It wouldn’t be 24 hours from now! I’d cull my library as soon as we got home. A few of my titles would also be among my donations.

I smiled as I closed the doors and fastened the latch. I made a mental note of the home;s address. The residents would be receiving and funky and anonymous postcard of thanks.

My sourness dissipated and it was onward with Elmer into my new life in Empire.

February 4, 2026

Oregon Tavern Age: No Lube

Matt Love NSP Meditations, Oregon Tavern Age

“Free Bird” played. Could I really stand to listen to this classic rock song again? It was deader than American representative government.

An ad for a gummy laxative played on a screen. What would happen if you ingested that product and THC infused gummy at the same time?

An OTA man at the bar talked about how drunk he was during the Cold War running a security detail on an Air Force base in Europe. He was pissed that Trump was destroying NATO. He had risked his life for the NATO alliance, got laid a lot, and now Trump was fucking it up. Fuck him!

It’s rare to hear such a profane anti-Trump sentiment in OTA country. Maybe there is still hope for us yet.

“Free Bird” ripped into its 13th guitar solo.

A local part-time homeless man withdrew funds and fed them into a slot machine.

I was thinking about a semi-homeless woman I’d seen at the boat ramp 15 minutes ago. She sported long blonde hair down to her curvy ass and wore KISS-era platform shoes, you know the type Gene Simmons wore on stage that had live goldfish swimming around in the heels. The woman also wore a knee-length blue vinyl jacket and striped leggings.

Holy shit what an ensemble!

She was probably in her late 70s or early 80s and stood outside her battered sedan crammed full of possessions. She popped the trunk and dumped flotsam and jetsam from Coos Bay she had collected in a bucket. She closed the trunk and then got inside the sedan. The passenger side! And started vaping weed.

Who are these people? They are utterly unknown to American literature, film, journalism and streaming shows. Their numbers are growing.

An OTA man at the bar asked the female OTA bartender if he brought a rectal thermometer in, would she take his temperature? He needed it performed for some kind of medical treatment that probably involved daily masturbation and enemas. There would be a big tip for the service.

She declined the request.

Behind me, an OTA woman told an another OTA woman, “You took it up the ass with the no lube.”

She was referring to a business transaction, not sex.

When I heard this, I instantly thought of my country and President Trump.

February 2, 2026

Two Crows in Love

Matt Love NSP Meditations, Poetry

Every morning two crows perch

on a wire above my home.

For seven months

I have watched them.

They groom.

They lean.

They huddle against wind.

They nod their heads as one.

They survey the street as one.

They caw together like a choir.

They chatter sweet nothings.

They have what I don’t have.

And may never have again.

So I nourish these corvids with

crackers, chips and bread

tossed on the lawn.

Sometimes even gristle

from a steak cooked for the dog.

January 26, 2026

Ruminations on My Writing

Matt Love NSP Meditations, Writing

The other day I was sitting in my local Oregon Tavern Age joint, sipping an ale, a notebook and pen at hand, ready to write something. I sat for 30 minutes, finished my ale, and wrote nothing. This was a first for me 27 years of writing hundreds of thousands of words in OTA joints.

So I got up and left.

Should this alarm me? Is this a classic writer’s block, which I have never experienced for one second since I got the writing going in 1998.

Am I finally tapped out after a 28-year run of books, zines, poems, tales, articles, columns and blog posts? My books don’t sell that many copies anymore. They have all vanished from the bookstores except for a few used titles. This blog doesn’t generate any income. The Substack platform a tiny bit.

I continue to write about the crisis of homelessness but that subject seems on the verge of drying up, with no new subject on the horizon. I did start a novel about teaching in the 90s, and was initially energized with this project, but six months ago my interest died. I had an idea about writing a memoir based on my mix tape collection, but it has since withered. I recently published a novella called Teacher of the Year, but most of that was written in 2011/12. There are my poems written over the last three decades and I may put out a collection this year, but those poems are already written. I have another idea for a quirky book about driftwood forts, but it would be too expensive to produce. Every now and then a story emerges from Oregon Tavern Age country but that heyday is long gone. Donald Trump killed that scene forever. What about a film script for Rose City Heist? Or a stage adaption of The Old Crow Book Club?

I don’t know where I’m going with all this. Sometimes writing about a dilemma or concern enables me to work through the barriers and complications. But what reader wants to read about a writer not writing? Boring.

Many times over the years, I have told myself and others, that my impulse to write could vanish one day and I would have to move on and direct my creative energy elsewhere. I don’t feel like that day has arrived yet.

January 19, 2026

Oregon Tavern Age: New Duds

Matt Love NSP Meditations, Oregon Tavern Age

The female OTA bartender ripped the retail tags off the OTA man’s red and black flannel shirt and tan slacks and said, “These motherfuckers aren’t going back to Walmart!”

Her profane exclamation enriched one of the more poignant moments I’ve ever observed in all my years of OTA adventuring. I’ll never forget it.

A few minutes earlier, the OTA man, a regular in my local Empire OTA joint, had slipped out the side door for a smoke. I didn’t know the man, but had often seen him wandering the main drag in Empire on foot, sometimes sloshed or searching for cigarettes on the sidewalk. He may or may not be homeless, or homeless full time (there is such a thing as part-time homelessness) but he was certainly pleasant enough to me in the joint, always saying hello and asking how my day was going.

After his departure, the bartender launched into a story with regular at the bar about the man and his new duds.

The story went like this:

The previous afternoon, the man had entered the joint and smelled so bad of piss and body odor that he practically cleared the room. The bartender had a discreet, kind, yet stern message for him. He reeked and needed to clean up if he wanted to remain a customer. The man didn’t say anything in response and walked out.

Now he was sporting new clothes and obviously showered and spruced up (cologne!).

Alas, he had forgotten to remove the tags, but the bartender had taken care of that.

When the man returned from his smoke break, everyone started complimenting his appearance. The bartender even bought him his signature drink: a Rolling Rock poured into a cup of black coffee.

This all occurred ten feet away from me and I could almost feel the radiance of the moment. I felt honored to observe and chronicle it for my readers, no matter how few people that may be at this point in my writing career.

(If you enjoy reading my writing, considering making a contribution through this site or purchasing a Nestucca Spit Press book. It all helps support an independent writer and publisher.)

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Teacher of the Year: A Novella

By Matt Love

A reluctant teacher becomes advisor to a moribund high school newspaper. He meets the new editor, a dynamic 18-year-old senior, and together they begin a unique creative collaboration that revives the publication and slowly slides into gray areas. As the poet Octavio Paz wrote, “To realize itself, love must violate the rules of our world...committed by two stars that break out of the conception of love, which implies breaking away and a catastrophe..."

Teacher of the Year
Amazon's Kindle Edition $6.99

Teacher of the Year unfolds in an energetic mixture of epistle, stream-of-consciousness, narrative and meditations on the craft and alchemy of teaching. There is no other more authentic literary exploration into the agonies and ecstasies of teaching in the annals of American literature than this novella.


A Substantial but Incomplete Autobiography in Poems

By Matt Love

In perhaps the largest, most eclectic volume of previously unpublished poetry in the history of Pacific Northwest literature, Matt Love presents 148 poems written over a 30-year span.

As he writes in the introduction to A Substantial but Incomplete Autobiography in Poems, “I have organized this collection into six categories: Ocean, Love, My Life, Oregon Tavern Age, Homelessness, Probation. These poems serve as a substantial but incomplete autobiography.”

“Confessionals, odes, scatological doggerel, polemics, tankas, haiku, prose, psalms, requiems, observations, love letters, lamentations, lyrics, stream of consciousness, meditations, lists, riffs, a eulogy, a sermon, a commencement speech, found poetry, tributes, elegies. I threw it all into an ancient cement mixer and hand cranked that concrete beast while watching blue herons undulate overhead and drinking red wine as the husky snoozed in his dirt fort. The result: A Substantial but Incomplete Autobiography in Poems, something merging where Charles Bukowski, Richard Hugo, Mary Oliver and Liz Phair blend together.”

None of Love's poems were ever submitted to poetry journals, contests or magazines, making this collection a true renegade project of passion and readable to any denizen of a coastal dive bar.

Amazon's Kindle Edition $7.99 (Free if you have Kindle Unlimited)

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