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October 8, 2025

Prefontaine Memorial Fun Run

Matt Love Coos Bay, NSP Meditations, Sports

Approximately a hundred yards from the finish of the Prefontaine Memorial 3k Fun Run, my right quad seized up and felt on the verge of tearing. I stopped. Running was impossible.

A hundred yards to finish on the track at Marshfield High School where Pre set state and American high school records in the late 60s. A hundred yards!

Pre would have gutted it out and finished, even if he had to crawl.

I am no Pre. I limped off the route and made my way (barely) back toward downtown Coos Bay where my ride was waiting.

It didn’t matter. Running the race was. It was the culmination of my 53-year-old special relationship with Oregon’s greatest sports legend, a relationship that included writing and publishing a book about Pre and stenciling a t-shirt with NEVER STOP PRE across the chest. I made the shirt for the race and wore it with pride.

My race analysis:

I took off way too fast at the sound of the starter’s pistol. Why?

I was just so damn giddy surrounded by a sea of happy runners of all ages. Being surrounded by happy people running a race honoring an Oregon legend is the perfect tonic to these trying times that try our American souls (that is if you have one.)

Sure it was a temporary feeling, but I’ll take it nonetheless.

For a moment, everyone was getting along and undivided. And I didn’t see a single MAGA shirt or hat anywhere, which seemed like a miracle.

One moment stood out. Five hundred yards into the race I was ripping it up the left side of the pack when I beheld a homeless man with a striking resemblance to Santa Claus if Santa Claus had ended up homeless on the Oregon Coast for a decade. The man had an improvised sled (I’m not making this up) crammed high with possessions. I surmised he had also rigged up some kind of harness to pull the sled.

But Santa and the reindeer-less sled were not the most memorable images from this moment.

That would be Santa rooting the runners on. He had obviously been aware of the race and staked out a prime site on the sidewalk to yell out encouragement. A homeless man in Coos Bay. It is entirely possible he went to high school with Pre. He was well into his mid to late 70s.

As I passed him, our eyes met. No, no twinkling nose. Just a silent thumbs up from Santa, and then I kicked it into another gear smiling the whole time.

October 6, 2025

Oregon Tavern Age: Ryder Cup

Matt Love Coos Bay, NSP Meditations

My local OTA joint in Coos Bay. A Friday afternoon. The Ryder Cup golf event played silently on screens. Trump showed up at the course to do his El Duce shtick.

Zero protest from the Ryder Cup American side. Craven and pathetic servility instead.

What did I expect from American professional golfers anyway?

The days of Muhammad Ali, Jim Brown, Curt Flood, Arthur Ashe, Tommy Carlos are long, long gone. They never existed in professional golf. Remember how long it took for August National to admit blacks and women as members? Arnold Palmer and Jack Nicklaus never said a word.

The joint was dead.

I was drinking an ale and trying to comprehend the image of morbidly obese woman walking out the grocery store with a chihuahua down her cleavage that I seen on the drive over.

Two OTAs at the bar and the female OTA bartender complained profanely about the local homeless woman who was addled and insane and a general menace to the neighborhood. The bartender said if the woman poked her head inside the joint again trying to mooch smokes or use the restroom, she was going to fuck her up.

I believed her and I didn’t want to see it.

You can feel the tolerance for the homeless oozing ways across Oregon and elsewhere. At times, I am feeling it myself.

An OTA man walked into the joint assisted by his OTA wife. He was somewhere beyond obese and used a walker. There was no way any chair or stool would hold him up.

He sat down and I prepared myself for the crash.

The chair held.

It was yet more proof that I was living in a community suffering from the greatest public health disaster I’d ever observed.

And it will never improve in my lifetime.

October 1, 2025

First Day of School

Matt Love Coos Bay, NSP Meditations

6:32 a.m., September 2, 2025.

Elmer and I step out the front door. Fog has commandeered the Empire District. I can’t see the house across the street, but that’s a good thing because then I won’t have to observe the ongoing ruination of three generations of an American family.

Dawn has arrived but it proves largely irrelevant. Fog has swallowed the street lights. We began walking into a gray gauze. My face is instantly wet.

Fifteen seconds later, a woman materializes in the middle of the street. Her back faces us. She stands stationary. She wears an orange and purple outfit and is barefoot. Her hair hangs straight and long, blonde and matted.

I’m going to say something but I don’t want to spook her, so I don’t.

We pass within ten feet of her and she still hasn’t moved. I angle to see her face but see nothing. I wanted to see something.

Twenty yards later, I turn around. The woman has turned around and walking away.

We pass the house with its moldering and rusting display of cars, trucks, boats, RVs and trailers. Grand total: 17. We pass three deer hiding out in a side yard. We pass a cat asleep on a driveway. I hear dogs barking and the clanking and creaking of a lumber mill. We pass an old homeless man rigging up his contraption for hauling cans and bottles. His pit bull snoozes beside him. We pass the young homeless woman asleep in her 90s sedan. We pass a homeless man picking and eating blackberries.

I look skyward and can see brighter blunted light above the fog. A counterattack against invisibility is underway.

We reach the boat ramp and it’s packed with trucks, trailers and boats, all of them seemingly brand new. There must be five million dollars worth of recreational possessions being put to use.

I observe two battered vans and two vehicles that serve as mobile domiciles. They’re regulars here. One of their owners, a man in his 70s or 80s, makes coffee from the trunk of his car decorated with a Trump 2024 sticker. He’s listening to heavy metal music on his phone, as he does every morning. He’s definitely a Black Sabbath man.

The tide is way out. The water is flat, not a single wave.

I love the heavy smell of an Oregon estuary in the early morning; it smells like victory. Well, there is also the smell of cannabis from the parking lot, but that only adds to the moment.

We approach the trail to the beach. A police car idles nearby. As we maneuver around it, I see no one is inside. I instantly know what that means.

We hit the sand and I let Elmer off leash. He races ahead and I follow at a slog jog. He stops and drops a Ted Cruz on a pile of seaweed.

I see a police officer entering the homeless encampment. He disappears into the fog and willows. Should I wait and watch what happens?

No. If I here gunfire…then…I’ll do what?

We head south. Pelicans dive bomb into the bay. Geese, gulls, sanderlings, cormorants and crows fly around or hunt in the mudflats

I see lights of fishing boats on the channel.

The fog is losing its superiority.

We walk until we can walk no farther. We turn around. I look left and see something 50 feet away bobbing on the water. It’s the head of a harbor seal. I see his whiskers! He begins moving directly toward me, head still above water. Elmer comes over and watches.

The seal submerges, then undulates out of the water, makes a tremendous splash, then disappears. What a way to start a morning!

The police car is gone when we reach the parking lot.

We begin our walk home. We pass several homeless people I’ve never seen before. One is a man and woman yelling profanities at one another. Another rockets past us on an electric scooter.

We pass multiple kids waiting for the school bus. Every one of them plays on a phone. It’s the first day of a new school year. Everything is possible. Or is it anymore for a kid going to public school in Coos Bay?

I wonder about those kids, their future, the country they will inherit. I wonder if a man my age today saw me walking to Mt. Pleasant Elementary on the first day of school in 1975, a half century ago, would have thought my fifth-grade future and the future of the country I was going to inherit was to be rosy or doomed or somewhere in between.

In all my years walking to elementary and junior high, I never once saw a homeless person. The kids waiting for the bus in Empire see four or five every morning. And there’s the ride to school. Maybe nine or ten more.

What if I was ten today and walking to my Oregon City elementary school on the first day of a new school year? Would I see homeless people?

Yes, Oregon City has several hundred homeless people. I know this because I served many of them at a street mission on 5th Street not that long ago.

September 29, 2025

The Fishmonger’s Ensemble

Matt Love NSP Meditations, Poetry

From the horror of Walmart

to the wonder of the fishmonger.

Just like that, everything can change

if someone can shoot some sparks.

I want a pound of smoked salmon

from the Charleston seafood shop.

I stand at the counter.

The fishmonger hands me the package and rings it up.

She wears:

bangles and spangles.

green stocking cap,

high waist, faded jeans,

long-sleeve white t-shirt

with a logo of a Chinese restaurant.

A recent thrift store find

in San Francisco

she tells me.

Who is this fishmonger?

What is this ensemble?

What is the word for it?

Style!

What is the word for hers?

Groovy.

Can anything be groovy in America these days?

I stare at the answer.

It’s smiling through the sweet lines of maturity

of someone who predates the Age of the Internet.

I tip for the ensemble,

tip for the sparks,

tip for the sweet lines,

walk outside.

The lyrics hit. I’m singing and not making a sound.

Slow down, you move to fast,

gotta make the morning last now, kickin’ down the cobblestones

and feeling groovy.

September 22, 2025

Oregon Tavern Age: Crabs

Matt Love NSP Meditations, Oregon Tavern Age

A new NCL (National Concussion League) season was underway on multiple screen in my local OTA joint. I had about a two-percent interest in it.

Four OTAs sat at the bar but weren’t paying attention to the games. Three other OTAs played slot machines. Dead classic rock drifted around the room.

I sat at a table drinking an ale and contemplating my future in Coos Bay. Will I find new purpose here?

An OTA man entered. The OTAs at the bar hailed him over.

The newcomer was jacked up. Earlier that day, he had limited out on Dungeness crab from a charter boat that employed him. And that was after the tourists took in their haul! He held up his phone to show the crustacean gold and his friends broke into applause and profane compliments.

A male OTA said something to the effect of, “You sure got a lot crabs.”

Naturally, they all began sharing stories of contracting venereal crabs in their wayward youth. Even the woman chimed in with her tawdry tale.

For a moment, I couldn’t believe what I was hearing, but then I stopped. This was OTA country! They’ll tell you about shitting themselves in a bathtub after drinking a fifth of Jägermeister or fucking the wrong brother under the Christmas tree without a sliver of shame or irony.

I listened to their crab stories. One easily topped them all. It went something like this:

Decades ago one of the men was driving a tiny pickup with two buddies crammed into the cab. There was barely enough for him to use the manual transmission.

They were on their way deer hunting deep into the woods via bumpy logging roads. They were all hungover to the roof.

The buddy to the driver’s immediate right started twitching. The he started madly scratching his balls. The driver couldn’t shift. They were going to crash so he pulled over. The driver asked his buddy what the fuck was going on! The buddy said he must have got crabs from some chick he fucked last night at a party.

He zipped his pants down and checked. Hell yes he had crabs. Jesus, there was an army down there! He kept on scratching, but with more vigor. Hellfire!

The driver told scratching man if one of those fuckers found its way into his pants, he was going to beat the shit out of him.

Scratching man got out of the truck. He jumped into the bed of the pickup and held on for dear life. They weren’t returning to town. There was deer to hunt even if you had crabs. Suck it up! This was Oregon goddammit!

He got the holy living shit beat out of him over those logging roads, possibly even a concussion.

They didn’t see a single deer.

When they got back home, scratching man took a lighter to his pubic hair and laid waste to it not unlike a clearcut.

September 18, 2025

Back into the Breach

Matt Love Coos Bay, NSP Meditations

A friend living on the Southern Oregon Coast and fan of The Old Crow Book Club educated me how I might proceed trying to help through official channels some of the homeless people in my Coos Bay neighborhood of Empire.

He was certainly knowledgeable about the various non profit and governmental agencies in Coos and Curry Counties tasked with alleviating the crisis of homelessness. He also served on the ground in Gold Beach as a volunteer who assists homeless people clean up their encampments. His hard, unpublicized work inspires me.

Four months had elapsed since moving to Coos Bay from Portland. Since then, I had met a dozen or so homeless people, almost exclusively while walking Elmer in the early mornings on a bay beach adjacent to a boat ramp. I’d chronicled those encounters on previous posts of this newsletter and also learned via cursory research that there was absolutely nothing in place like the vast bureaucratic system in Portland I used to obtain housing for several members of the book club.

I now felt it was time to take action as a concerned citizen and member of my new community. Writing alone wasn’t cutting it anymore and I realized this as my brief observations and interactions with several homeless women became more disturbing.

Woman #1 wore bizarre outfits and I’d seen her doing push-ups on a sidewalk with bloodied eyes. Later, I saw her jogging with a face done up in makeup reminiscent of a Goth rocker and raccoon.

Woman #2 emerged from an encampment, came up to me and Elmer, grunted something after I said hello, then went down on all fours and began playing with the dog as if she was a dog, barking and howling the whole time.

Woman #3 smoked cigarettes while digging in the mud flats. She was not clamming. I asked what she was looking for and she said something unintelligible.

Woman #4 gathered up seaweed washed ashore and stacked it in a pile.

These women were probably in their 20s-40s but it is often impossible to determine the age of homeless people.

Only one of them exuded the facial appearance of hard core methamphetamine or fentanyl abuse. The rest of the faces were utterly vacant.

I am no expert on mental health but it seemed like severe mental illness afflicted these women.

The encampment, once relatively benign when I first discovered it, had recently taken on a decidedly more menacing atmosphere. There was even some evidence that suggested prostitution of at least one of the women.

So what to do because I had to do something? It would be a failure of my humanity to do nothing and many of us battle this terrible dilemma every day wherever we live in the United States when it comes to the crisis of homelessness. What can we do?

It was time to jump into the breach of bureaucracy again, only this time in rural Oregon—a totally different political and cultural climate than Portland when it came to serving the homeless.

My first course of action would be to call the county’s mental health agency. To my astonishment, the call was answered on the first ring. That never happened in Portland whenever I contacted agencies or non profits in similar situations.

I briefly explained to a receptionist my observations/encounters with the women on the beach. Could the receptionist direct me to a staffer that might be able to assist them or tell me who else to contact? I was transferred and my call went to voice mail where a recording informed the staffer was out of the office until a certain date.

That date had been a week ago, meaning the staffer hadn’t changed her voice mail greeting.

I left a brief message and my phone number. Call me anytime. I hung up and wondered if she would return my call.

The next morning I came back inside after performing some home improvement and saw that I had a voice mail. It was the staffer and she would be happy to discuss the situation; she was on the road that day and would try again later. I immediately returned her call, got voice mail, and left a message.

Phone tag continued into the next day but finally we connected and I gave her the lowdown. She listened, asked questions, and provided me with options. What follows are those options with my concerns for each one.

Call 9-1-1 if you sense someone is in danger. That means I’ll have to start carrying my phone on my morning walks. And if I call, do I wait around and direct the police to the woman’s whereabouts? Yes, that would seem necessary. If the police intervene, what do they do? The staffer said all of the local police had received training for people engulfed in a public mental health crisis. Still, the mantra in Portland was: don’t ever call in the cops when a person is having a mental health crisis in public. Call the Street Response Team.

Call the non emergency number for the police. By the time the police responded, who knows where the woman might be. Am I supposed to wait around for hours?

The county did have a center where they admitted people experiencing a mental health crisis. It was approximately two miles from the encampment. The county also had a van that could respond to a crisis and transport the person to the center for intake, assessment and possible courses of action. But the person had to consent to that. From my perspective, these women had no ability to consent to anything whenever I encountered them. They were basically incoherent. Of course I wasn’t a trained social worker so perhaps such a professional knew and could employ strategies to obtain consent. One problem with the van: it wasn’t available until eight in the morning and every incident I’d witnessed had occurred between six and seven.

The staffer said I could attempt to persuade the woman to let me drive her to the center, which had 24-hour access. Well, I was always on foot with a dog. Moreover, there was no way a private citizen should perform such a service. These weren’t situations like shooting victims who needed immediate transport to an emergency room.

Our conversation lasted 20 minutes and the staffer showed remarkable enthusiasm for my concern. I never heard that level of enthusiasm from any Portland area staffer. I liked hearing it.

She told me to call back or even visit the center if I wanted to learn more. Her office was located in that building complex, but she was out in the field a lot, mostly investigating elder abuse.

I thanked her for working so diligently in an impossible job in a shattered nation. She said she was born to do this type of work.

So what to do? I have no idea. It occurred to me that I have no personal relationship with any of the homeless people I encounter in Coos Bay, which was completely the opposite of my experience in Portland. It took a year to build that foundation with members of the Old Crow Book Club. But I did it, built the trust, they became my friends, and they trusted me to help them. We were in it together and eventually met with partial success.

So again, what to do?

For now, keep walking Elmer to the bay every morning, keep alert, and be ready to act when a situation demands it.

As of this writing, I can’t conceive of what that action might look like.

(Postscript: several weeks after my conversation with the social worker, I saw Woman #1 surrounded by police officers, including a tribal agency, on a sidewalk in front of a convenience store. A week after this incident, I saw her back in the encampment.)

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Teacher of the Year: A Novella

By Matt Love

A reluctant teacher becomes advisor to a moribund high school newspaper. He meets the new editor, a dynamic 18-year-old senior, and together they begin a unique creative collaboration that revives the publication and slowly slides into gray areas. As the poet Octavio Paz wrote, “To realize itself, love must violate the rules of our world...committed by two stars that break out of the conception of love, which implies breaking away and a catastrophe..."

Teacher of the Year
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Teacher of the Year unfolds in an energetic mixture of epistle, stream-of-consciousness, narrative and meditations on the craft and alchemy of teaching. There is no other more authentic literary exploration into the agonies and ecstasies of teaching in the annals of American literature than this novella.


A Substantial but Incomplete Autobiography in Poems

By Matt Love

In perhaps the largest, most eclectic volume of previously unpublished poetry in the history of Pacific Northwest literature, Matt Love presents 148 poems written over a 30-year span.

As he writes in the introduction to A Substantial but Incomplete Autobiography in Poems, “I have organized this collection into six categories: Ocean, Love, My Life, Oregon Tavern Age, Homelessness, Probation. These poems serve as a substantial but incomplete autobiography.”

“Confessionals, odes, scatological doggerel, polemics, tankas, haiku, prose, psalms, requiems, observations, love letters, lamentations, lyrics, stream of consciousness, meditations, lists, riffs, a eulogy, a sermon, a commencement speech, found poetry, tributes, elegies. I threw it all into an ancient cement mixer and hand cranked that concrete beast while watching blue herons undulate overhead and drinking red wine as the husky snoozed in his dirt fort. The result: A Substantial but Incomplete Autobiography in Poems, something merging where Charles Bukowski, Richard Hugo, Mary Oliver and Liz Phair blend together.”

None of Love's poems were ever submitted to poetry journals, contests or magazines, making this collection a true renegade project of passion and readable to any denizen of a coastal dive bar.

A Substantial but Incomplete Autobiography in Poems

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