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September 20, 2024

Surrealism and the Homeless

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In my early morning meanderings through the neighborhood with Elmer, we had seen many sights related to the homeless that I believed in my lifelong study of American history had no parallel in American history. Some were bizarre; some defied explanation; some were farcical or comedic; many were mesmerizing; some poignant, several pathetic, one aggravating; some ended up as poems of collage; some piled up one after another in the course of 20 minutes and remained eternally unsorted.

Elmer and I had also encountered astonishing scenes of nature in the park: creeks, oak and conifer trees, blue herons, Canadian geese, multiple species of ducks, a turtle, otters, skunks, beavers, owls, hawks, a beaver lodge, a muskrat, nutrias, squirrels and coyotes. What also astonished me was knowing that if I had walked a through this park 30-35 years ago, as I had many times while living in the neighborhood, almost none of these sighting of wildlife would have occurred because the park’s riparian areas had yet to be restored to fuller ecology.

But now a bit of wildness ( a beaver lodge!) had returned to the city and I benefited every morning. It was perhaps the main reason I could endure living in Portland.

I often wondered if what I constructed after witnessing and juxtaposing these images and experiences constituted an act of surrealist thought, I mean pure unadulterated slices of the classical artistic movement known as surrealism that originated in France a century ago with Andre Breton as its champion and author of its manifesto.

Surrealism today is almost elusively associated with hallucinatory visual art (i.e. Salvador Dali) but its literature was almost as vital, although that’s largely forgotten today.

Before exploring this subject deeper in this essay, let me discourse a bit on surrealism to set up the ending.

The adjective “surreal” gets tossed around a lot in various American media circles by people who think they know what it means. They don’t.

Some recent examples:

A Fox News host shrieks it surreal that a former President was convicted of 34 counts of fraud by a jury of his peers. (Wrong.)

A college basketball player whose team has just won back-to-back NCAA Division 1 championships describes the moment as surreal. (Wrong.)

A contestant on a network talent show tells the judges it feels surreal being up on stage. (Wrong.)

A historian of the War in the Pacific during World War II writes how surreal it was for a Japanese artillery shell to blast a Marine completely through the trunk of a tree during an amphibious landing. (Wrong.)

A sports talk radio jock proclaims a the aftermath of a prize fight that devolved in bedlam surreal. (Wrong.)

I could could go on and on. Right now, surreal is the most overused and erroneously used word in the vernacular of American popular culture.

Surreal is not a synonym for bizarre or something that seemingly could not happen.

I have studied surrealism for decades, taught a surrealism-themed writing workshops to high school students, teachers and adults, and infrequently integrated its concepts into my books, most notably in Of Walking in Rain.

What then is surrealism? Its famous definition goes something like, “An umbrella and sewing machine meet on an operating room table.” In the manifesto, Breton wanted surrealism to bridge the antediluvian chasm between dreaming and waking life that might lead to a future resolution between those states of mind.

Surrealism as formal art occurs when utterly distinct words or images or sounds or experiences become juxtaposed by an artist, either at random or by design, and then the artist, or anyone for that matter, is free to construct a new reality or irreality based on the juxtaposition or collage of the presented items.

There is absolutely nothing linear or narrative in surrealism. How can there be if an artist cuts out images from a 1963 Playboy, a current issue of Guns and Ammo, a 1930s children’s illustrated life of Jesus Christ, and 1975’s The Joys of Jello cookbook, places them in a dryer for 30 seconds, pulls out the images one by one in the dark, perhaps coasting on magic mushrooms, and collages them into a piece of art while listening to a cassette of calliope music.

What I have just described above is an example of making visual art in a surrealist manner. Something similar can happen with writing.

William Burroughs and Gertrude Stein would scissor random words or lines from vastly different publications and then arrange the words or lines at random or with editorial intent to construct a piece of writing. Burroughs called these experiments in surrealism “Cut Ups” and I’d met with incredible success using this method in teaching creative writing for decades but several years had passed since I’d written (compiled and/or collaged) anything in the surrealist mode.

Was there anything surreal about the homeless crisis that I had observed in recent years? The question had frequently crossed my mind. I’d chronicled many episodes of my encounters with homeless people’s behavior and often evaluated them for qualities of surrealism. For example, and these are all pre Elmer:

Was the image of someone naked, zonked on fentanyl and screaming at a light pole in a progressive city like Portland and no one does anything about it surreal. No. That’s addiction and neglect.

Was the image of two men playing foosball in a homeless encampment that flew American flags atop dilapidated RVs surreal? No. They found the foosball table on a sidewalk, carried it to the encampment, and returned to a favorite pastime from their glory teenage years in the 70s. I would have done the same if I’d found a foosball table. The two men were merely having fun by using a discarded toy precisely the way it was intended.

Was the image of a stripper pole installed in a two-store plywood and pallet shanty surreal? No. To quote Marvin Gaye, “Let’s Get It On.”

Was the image of a man living in a homeless encampment using a portable blow torch to barbecue a crawdad surreal? Okay, that edged closer, but still, not there yet. He was hungry. He owned a blowtorch. He knew how to use it. He saw a crawdad in the creek behind the encampment. He cooked it up for supper. That made perfect sense, as did the paprika he used to season the crawdad.

And what about the image of two young girls dressed in grimy hoodies, oversized holey jeans and mismatched sneakers? One pulled a red wagon full of cans and bottles; the other walked beside her friend, grunting and gesticulating. They both laughed in staccato bursts and generally acted weird. Initially, I had no idea what the hell was going on. I watched them as they passed me as I stood near a homeless man sauced on malt liquor while I was then writing a book about the homeless in my neighborhood.

I didn’t get it until…

…I…

…did…

The girls were playing at being homeless. There was no other possible explanation.

Was that surreal? No. They were simply modeling behavior they’d habitually observed and were having a blast doing so. Hey, adults still dress up as hobos and bindle stiffs for Halloween and carry jugs of Carlo Rossi rotgut wine as part of the costume. That’s not surreal.

One day, after seeing a man sitting on a camp stool wearing a box over his head while smoking fentanyl at 5:45 in the morning, I was staggered by the sight and decided then and there to immerse myself in a surrealism writing workshop later that day.

The goal was to distill what I was seeing in the park with Elmer and perhaps make sense of everything. That I was trying to discover meaning through an exercise in surrealism automatically ruled out any possible outcome of surrealism…

…but…

…after writing almost a half million words about the homeless crisis in every conceivable literary genre, except surrealism, why not give it a try? There was nothing to lose and everything to gain if the exercise produced even a sliver of understanding.

All these years and words and I was no closer to discovering what was really happening in Oregon in connection to homelessness, let alone how to solve the greatest domestic humanitarian crisis of my adult lifetime. It was a crisis that I saw and/or interacted with every day, sometimes two or three times a day, no matter where I traveled in Oregon, a crisis that I had tried to alleviate by assisting homeless people in my midst and writing and publishing a book on the subject.

But something had shifted. Since adopting Elmer and walking with him every morning, I had witnessed scenes of homelessness blocks from my home so novel and devastating to me that I feared a decline in my spiritual and mental health.

Therapy? No!

“Pluck they own heart string” as Emerson advised? Yes!

So I devised a surrealism-themed writing workshop. Feel free to take it yourself. It doesn’t take very long.

What follows are declarative sentences I wrote about the occurrences that transpired on a dozen of our walks through the park between 5:30 and 6:00 in the morning in the months of April-June 2024. I could have written hundreds of more sentences from previous winter walks, but I didn’t want the exercise to become too unwieldy or time consuming. These incidents are not in chronological order.

An abandoned notebook has two words written it: Royal Flesh.

A softball field waits for players.

Ducks swim in a fly fishing casting pond built by the CCC during the Depression.

Two skunks sniff around the entrance to the Presbyterian church.

Mt. Hood looks orange, red, purple and blue in the eastern sky.

A writer walks his husky at 5:30 in the morning.

An elderly man and woman live in a van and share a wheelchair.

Someone left behind a plastic jar of Cheetos in a grocery cart.

A woman rides a bicycle towing a baby carrier full of cans and bottles.

An old man cuts rhododendron flowers with a Bowie knife.

Songbirds sing.

A man walking though the park carrying all his possessions listens to Tom Petty’s “Runnin’ Down a Dream” on his phone. He sings along to it.

A man in the park draws a picture of a penis and scrotum in bark chips.

A blue heron hunts in the creek.

A man on meth shoots hoops alone.

Rain falls.

A man sitting on a stool wears a box over his head and smokes fentanyl.

A creek flows down a watershed.

A man living in an Acura takes his black puppy for a walk in the park.

A beaver glides in the creek.

Canadian geese honk overhead.

A writer composes a haiku in his head.

A 1990s Oldsmobile SUV parked at the park hasn’t moved in six months.

Freight trains squeak as they couple and uncouple.

No one has returned in three months to a tent pitched in the blackberries.

The husky takes a dump.

A coyote appears, disappears, reappears.

I printed the sentences and cut them out individually. I put all the sentences in an envelope, shook it up, then dumped them onto a piece of yellow construction paper. I began arranging the sentences with conscious intent on a table in my back yard to the sonic accompaniment of classical music (later identified as a fugue) and Elmer’s gnawing on a bone. I attempted to construct a new reality, possibly a surrealist one, from whatever emerged from my construction.

Five minutes later I had composed this:

A man walking though the park carrying all his possessions listens to Tom Petty’s “Runnin’ Down a Dream” on his phone. He sings along to it.

A beaver glides in the creek.

A man sitting on a stool wears a box over his head and smokes fentanyl.

A blue heron hunts in the creek.

A man living in an Acura takes his black puppy for a walk in the park.

Canadian geese honk overhead.

A 1990s Oldsmobile SUV parked at the park hasn’t moved in six months.

A creek flows down a watershed.

A woman rides a bicycle towing a baby carrier full of cans and bottles.

Songbirds sing.

A man in the park draws a picture of a penis and scrotum in bark chips.

Ducks swim in a fly fishing casting pond built by the CCC during the Depression.

An abandoned notebook has two words written it: Royal Flesh.

Mt. Hood looks orange, red, purple and blue in the eastern sky.

An elderly man and woman live in a van and share a wheelchair.

Rain falls.

A man on meth shoots hoops alone.

A coyote appears, disappears, reappears.

I read it aloud twice and in doing so gradually recognized the reason for my particular arrangement. I wasn’t conscious of my choices when I was moving the sentences around or discarding some altogether. They fell into order as if by mental legerdemain.

The exercise produced a poem, if you want to call it that, of one image of homelessness followed by an image of nature. This type of stark contrast occurs almost every morning on my walks with Elmer. Just this morning, I saw a fine telescope in a encampment consisting of a tiny 60-year-old trailer and three tarped tents not long after I observed a mother and father goose herd their new chicks down a grassy slope.

My poem did not meet the standard for surrealism. I wasn’t disappointed. I seek understanding writing about the homeless and this exercise provided one on a strictly personal level. I don’t hold it out as a truism for anyone else.

What I observe in the mornings unfolds all the time in Oregon, and elsewhere in the United States. If something happens all the time it cannot be described as surreal. Surrealism isn’t commonplace or ongoing. What I see every morning with homelessness and nature in my neighborhood has become commonplace to me and obviously ongoing. Indeed, the former seems to worsen; the latter seems very much to prosper. My local watershed began recovering two decades ago after a century of ignorance and abuse.

After two decades of uniquely American abuse too varied and complex to delineate here, many people are homeless, many addled and insane and pulverized with no hope of reclamation or restoration.

Will I walk through the juxtaposition of early morning marvels of nature and the misery of homelessness for the foreseeable Oregon future, perhaps the rest of my life?

I think so. It’s the most dispiriting sensation I’ve ever felt as an Oregonian.

At least Elmer will be with me.

September 18, 2024

Oregon Tavern Age: Silver Dollar at Noon

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The Silver Dollar Tavern in Coos Bay. Noon. A Saturday in September.

Two OTA women played pool and slugged bloody marys. Every slot machine was in use. The female OTA bartender and her male OTA handyman struggled to to shut a door that led to the kegs. I waited at the bar for well over a minute before the bartender noticed me and poured me a draft of some foreign lager.

I sat at the bar and stared to my left at various sentences posted here and there: “Cash only,” “We do not accept sweaty boob money,” “Don’t be a dick.”

No typos. Perfect punctuation. A rarity in homemade signs in OTA country. Someone somewhere had a decent English teacher.

Two menu items caught my eye: pizza pocket $5…corndog $3.50.

Is corndog one word or two?

Elmer the husky and I were in the area camping for the weekend and to recon. One day I may move here once my time in Portland ends. Something about the sheer grittiness and moldering, decrepit quality of the locale intrigues me. They also have the second best cluster of excellent OTA dives. Nothing will ever beat Gold Beach.

I’ve spent considerable time in Coos Bay the past year researching the Steve Prefontaine book (out soon!) and the place speaks to me as a writer. Now all I need to do is find a partner who wants to take on a fixer house and fix it up. But who wants to move to Coos Bay besides me?

Silence reined inside the Silver Dollar. No music. No TV. No conversation. Just the tinkling noises of the slot machines sucking the cash from the impoverished. Someone could croak at a back table in this joint and no one would notice for days.

On the drive from the Coos County Museum (Outstanding. Pro Native American storylines with some good debunking of the Pioneer myths that infect so many rural history museums), I saw that Reagan, the new bio pic, was playing at the North Bend cinema complex.

Who in the world would pay to see that movie? I wonder if anyone in America seeing this historical fantasy in a theater got a blow job or got felt up. God I hope so! Probably in the Red States by people in their 60s and 70s.

Finally, the stooge manhandled the door to the keg into closing. He excused himself to go out for a smoke in the parking lot. Three of the slot machine players stood up and left the tavern.

I sipped my beer and stared right. More homemade posters. I looked for typos. I was once an English teacher, you know.

September 16, 2024

Sunrise at Sunset Bay

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Elmer and I took a weekend camping trip to Sunset Bay State Park south of Coos Bay. I hadn’t booked a spot in advance and was winging it, like you used to be able to do with camping in Oregon.

I was lucky. Only a few spots were available, which shocked me. It was after Labor Day; this campground is four hours away from the Portland area and 20 or so miles off 101. When I arrived the parks employee said I better check out the site fast because if I didn’t book it right away, someone with an app could steal it out from under me—as I stood right there!

Oregon is overrun when it comes to camping like this. If I was governor I would find a way to build 25 new campgrounds in two terms. Take some of the clean energy money and spend it.

It had been a long, long time since I camped with a dog in a state campground. Luckily this one afforded some privacy and I pitched my tent under a stately Sitka spruce.

At 5:30 Elmer roused me for his morning walk so off we went with a flashlight for the half mile to the tiny beach at Sunset Bay. We walked back and forth until the light rose over the trees behind us. Kelp abounded. Gulls swam offshore. A freighter lit up like a Christmas tree waited for the right moment to sail between the jetties and into Coos Bay.

We were the only ones there, a bit of surprise to me considering how many people were camping in this park. No one else wanted to see dawn come to life at the ocean’s edge? I have always maintained one of my secret weapons in life is the ability to get up early and get things done.

At around 6:45 a school bus picked up three grade school kids near the bay. They had been waiting in a van with their mother. What a bus stop! Maybe the most scenic one in North America. Just wait until February and they catch the bus in the rain and windstorms.

I miss waking up every morning and interacting with the ocean. It was also one of my secret weapons. I shall return one day, but where? How? When?

On the trip from Portland I hit three thrift stores and struck out each time. The thrift hounds from the Willamette Valley have picked these stores clean. Like I said, Oregon is overrun.

The next morning, Elmer and I hit the beach even earlier. There we were zigging and zagging with the flashlight illuminating our way. A few stars shone in the sky.

I saw headlights from a road above the beach that led to the parking lot of this wayside. The vehicle then turned onto a ramp that led to the beach where it is illegal to drive. The ramp is used to offload kayaks.

Great. Some asshole on meth was going to drive down the beach and spoil my sunrise.

Elmer and I turned around and a directed my flashlight toward the vehicle (a typical meth beater sedan) so the asshole knew I was there.

But the sedan did not drive down the beach. It left the ramp and got stuck! The asshole gunned it a few times. Nothing doing. He gave up for the moment.

By this time I was sitting on a log taking this all in with Elmer at my side. Layers of light gray began appearing in the sky.

Then a woman with long hair got out of the passenger side, took off her top, and started playing with her breasts and dancing as the headlights lit her up. All the while she was filming it with a phone.

A meth Instagram influencer? I’ve seen weirder on Oregon’s socialist beaches, but the early hour distinguished this encounter.

The woman returned to the sedan. The asshole gunned it again and made it onto the ramp and over to the parking lot. There, the woman took off her clothes and danced in front of the cinderblock restroom while the asshole turned the headlights on and off like a strobe light.

She filmed her performance. Where will it land after being uploaded? I actually want to see it.

Ten minutes later they left and Elmer and I resumed our walk until sunrise came on Sunset Beach.

September 11, 2024

Restoring a Human Watercourse

Matt Love NSP Meditations

(Readers: What follows is a new essay formed from three other smaller pieces about the homeless. I submitted it to the Oregon Humanities magazine last month for a special currents-themed edition, but it was rejected. The editor said it wasn’t the “right fit” for the publication.)

In late December of 2020, I returned to Portland after a 23-year absence living on the Oregon Coast to move in with my 89-year-old father. My beloved stepmom of 30 years had passed away from cancer and my father could not live alone in his home in the tony southeast neighborhood of Sellwood. A year and a half later, he began falling and I no longer could properly care for him, so we decided on assisted living.

I had a long and wonderful history with Sellwood. When I attended graduate school at Lewis and Clark in the late 80s, I lived in a dilapidated rental home in the neighborhood with four other people (rent: $75 a month). We played touch football in Westmoreland Park and drank in the dearly departed Penguin Pub (draft of Hamm’s: 75 cents). I met my wife while she clerked in an independently-owned video store a quarter of mile from the house. A decade later we got married in Sellwood Park in a grove of Douglas firs.

And now I was in Sellwood again, but in my long absence from Portland much had changed with the Rose City, all across Oregon, and the nation—the crisis of homelessness.

Despite its wealth and status, Sellwood suffered from a festering case of homelessness. That appeared obvious to me the first day of my return. I walked out the front door and strolled to Westmoreland Park where I happened upon a homeless encampment alongside Crystal Springs Creek. It consisted of tents, tarps, plywood shanties, a dog igloo (a man lived in it), vehicles, trailers and RVs. The presence of garbage, weird accumulations of inexplicable shit, and extremely addled homeless men and women near the riparian areas braced me. How can the sight of a homeless man barbecuing crawdads harvested from a creek with a blowtorch not brace you?

In the spring of 2021 I also discovered homeless encampments in the neighborhood or a short distance away that were destroying riparian areas along Johnson Creek, Oaks Bottom Wildlife Refuge, and a wetlands adjacent to Sellwood Riverfront Park on the banks of the Willamette River.

In the previous two decades, various agencies had spent $20 million dollars to restore Johnson Creek to fuller ecology. That restoration included property buyouts, bringing back wetlands, planting 25,000 trees to stem erosion and provide shade to lower water temperatures, and placing large woody debris to improve salmon habitat.

Several millions more had also been expended to restore Oaks Bottom, Crystal Springs Creek and the wetlands adjacent to Sellwood Riverfront Park.

The restoration efforts proved wildly successful and on my morning walks through all the aforementioned areas, I saw otters, muskrats, blue herons, turtles, skunks, beavers, beaver lodges, all manner of waterfowl, bald eagles, ospreys and coyotes.

Almost none of that was going on when I lived in Sellwood in the 80s, certainly not in Westmoreland Park.

Now, many stretches of these watershed restoration projects in my neighborhood and father upstream on Johnson Creek had been severely undermined or pulverized by the residency of homeless people that on close inspection bordered on malice.

I say that because I inspected a dozen of these sights at ground zero level.

Such as the time about a year ago when I caught wind of a major sweep/clean-up of a homeless encampment planned for a ten-acre wetlands adjacent to Sellwood Riverfront Park that was home to the rare northern red-logged frog and countless other species of flora and fauna. This wetlands even had a short trail around it with signage to educate visitors.

I walked to the hill overlooking the encampment for several days after hearing about the possible sweep and each time, nothing had changed. Then one day, something had.

A sweep removed approximately 15 bombed-out RVs, cars and trucks parked single file on a narrow shoulder 50 feet above the encampment. Garbage was strewn and piled along the shoulder, including two refrigerators. To prevent reoccupation, the city had placed approximately 75 large concrete barriers blocking vehicular access to the shoulder.

Was I happy at the sweep? Yes. I wanted the miscreants out of the wetlands. It would take half a decade to heal, but it would, with hands-on restoration. I knew that from coordinating of a coastal watershed council and decade-long tenure as caretaker of the Nestucca Bay National Wildlife Refuge. In both roles I helped restore thousands of acres of wrecked land in riparian areas, estuaries and uplands, land wrecked by natural resource extraction industries.

I trekked down the hill to the shoulder and concrete barriers. Someone had spray painted many of them with words. The words read:

The blocks kill

Stop the sweeps

Fuck the government

Fuck the city

Fuck ur $

Fuck ur laws

Fuck NIMBYS

Fuck you

Fuck me

People lived here

My response to that was FUCK YOU!

These people were bitching about NIMBY while destroying the homes, front yards and back yards of hundreds of species of flora and fauna with their insidious residency. Go ahead and ruin the concrete under a freeway but don’t ruin a micro ecosystem and wipe out habitat for a rare species, possibly extirpating it from a place it had flourished for eons.

We don’t allow the willful destruction of a rare species of flora or fauna in the construction of dams and resorts or because of logging and mining operations. Why allow it here?

I rarely get angry in my interactions with the homeless. I’ve worked with them the past several years in several capacities (even writing a book about one small band in my neighborhood) and had my eyes and heart opened after learning their stories.

But after I investigated the encampment I got angry, verging on rage.

I crossed the road and walked between two barriers. I stood on the shoulder and looked down the embankment to the encampment.

It had not been swept. The wetlands had not been cleaned up. There were more discarded appliances and several china hutches better suited for palatial mansions.

The city had performed cosmetic surgery. What was needed was a full-blown operation to save a wetlands from critical condition.

I walked roughly 300 yards down the shoulder, paralleling the encampment. Up close, the devastation was much worse than I had imagined: massive erosion, mounds of garbage, compacted soil, drug paraphernalia, trees stripped of branches or chopped down altogether, car batteries, dozens of propane tanks, dozens of shopping carts. There were also considerably more tent/tarp domiciles than I previously thought. I stopped counting at 15.

The smell emanating from the wetlands was not the natural smell of a wetlands. It smelled like a rural home with a malfunctioning septic system.

At first, I heard only white noise of distant traffic. Then I started hearing voices, and staccato bursts of loud and strange, unintelligible words. They sounded almost prehistoric, or what I thought prehistoric language might have sounded like.

These voices were eclipsed by the sound of crackling fire. I saw it burning somewhere in the foliage. I saw an outline of a person feeding the fire wood. Then came unmistakable sound of someone hacking branches with a hatchet.

It was discombobulating, this hearing in real time the further destruction of a wetlands. I almost cried out, but refrained because I didn’t know what to say that didn’t involve profanity, and that wasn’t going to help the cause. The stupid cursing on the blocks already proved that.

The advocates for the homeless claim sweeping the encampment would traumatize the human residents living there. They don’t seem to recognize the trauma (actually death) inflicted upon nature by destructive human residency. As anyone who has ever camped near a creek or wetlands knows, camping, even in the long term, does not have to end up murdering the place.

Not long after observing the destruction of the wetlands, I was walking in Westmoreland Park along Crystal Springs and observed a crew of men and women maintaining the restoration of the riparian area that began in earnest a decade ago. This maintenance consisted of removing non-native plants and planting willows here and there. It was all about improving the health of this tiny creek so it could improve the health of Johnson Creek and the Willamette and Columbia Rivers farther down the watershed. It was about doing something for the future.

I watched the crew for ten minutes. I missed doing that kind of work for a living. It was the best work of my life, infinitely more rewarding than teaching and publishing books.

As I stood there, it occurred to me that a hundred yards away was a mini encampment of three tents and and five rigs, including a battered Oldsmobile SUV from the 90s that housed a man who sometimes wore a box over his head to more efficiently capture vapors of the fentanyl he was smoking at six in the morning.

Interesting, I thought: a project to restore a damaged creek in close proximity to a small community of damaged humans, and one human in particular, the man with the box over his head.

These humans were in dire and immediate need of restoration, but didn’t give an earthly damn about their destruction of the creek that was nourishing them in obvious (access to water) and possibly unknown metaphysical ways that creeks often provide.

What did this juxtaposition of destruction of human beings and restoration of nature say about us? I believe they’re connected. How can they not be when we’re all mostly made from water and need water to survive? Why wouldn’t you restore both at the same time since we, indeed everything living, are part of a watershed. The healthier a single watershed, the healthier everything is in the world, ecologically and spiritually. I wish preachers and politicians would start talking about this, but most of them don’t know what a watershed is, much less the one they inhabit.

I wondered how you would apply the lessons of successful stream restoration to restoring a damaged human community.

To restore a salmon-bearing stream in Oregon requires culverts that don’t impede fish passage, cool, clean water not subjected to erosion/pollution from development, logging, grazing and mining. You also need native vegetation, stream channel complexity with pools, side channels, abundant gravel, in-stream woody debris, insect life, native critters, diverse tree cover to provide shade, and wetlands to protect rearing fish when high water flows occur.

I sat down at a picnic table and turned my attention toward the encampment. Could I apply the lessons and metaphors of restoring a damaged Oregon stream to restoring a damaged stream of Oregon humanity? These were people, my neighbors, flowing down a terrible and deadly current.

It seemed like an almost impossible mental, let alone a material task but I gave it a try.

A couple of geese waddled past me. I heard some daffy ducks in the creek and noticed new gnawed signs of beavers. I pulled out my notebook and jotted down some thoughts and ideas.

My notes:

We must think of a human being as a type of watercourse.

We must never use herbicides in restoring this stream of humanity. What might those herbicides be?

Remove other man-made poisons that create addictions in people and render them unable or unwilling to live in such a way that doesn’t destroy watersheds.

We must create a wetlands because frail and even healthy human beings need places of refuge during high flows. What would something like a wetlands for human beings look like? Places of friendship, faith, service, fun, employment, learning and solitude.

Streams are meant to meander. Too often human beings try to straighten a stream or river for greedy, short-sighted purposes. Let damaged humans meander as we try to restore them. Nothing on the straight and narrow in life really works, except zealotry.

This stream of humanity needs better flow. There are too many artificial barriers and plugged or misaligned culverts for people to succeed.

The destructive erosion of capitalism into this stream must be abated. So many homeless people have been eroded to the point that no soil exists within to grow anything.

Plant! Plant! Plant! Plant love, work, food and pathways.

Bring in the damn beavers! (No metaphor here.) Wait, they’re already lurking in the creek near the encampment! Look to their lodges for ideas for tiny homes! The men and women who work on restoring the damaged human beings must labor as industrious as beavers!

We must relentlessly maintain, monitor and evaluate watershed and human restoration projects. Sometimes restoration fails and if it does, you start all over again. At some point, it won’t fail. I know this from planting one stretch on a coastal creek called Neskowin three times. The trees there are now 30 feet tall.

Successful watershed restoration requires teamwork by professionals and volunteers. The same goes for successful restoration of homeless people.

Everything we do must be done with alacrity.

AN IDEA! A POSSIBLE GREAT NOTION struck me while sitting at the picnic table:

What about designing a creative thinking workshop for employees of government agencies and non profit organizations tasked with solving Oregon’s homeless crisis that paired themwith watershed restoration experts with track records of success in Oregon? These experts are legion around the state. Why not have all the participants dive deep into the reality and metaphor of successful watershed restoration work and apply it to working with the homeless.

Perhaps something extraordinary might evolve from such a unique workshop and produce a model that might succeed and then be replicated across the various degraded streams of humanity all across the country.

Why not look to the lessons of healing a damaged watershed for answers to healing damaged human watercourses?

Pilot a project. Give it a try. I know just the place. We have nothing to lose.

September 9, 2024

Homeless Housewarming Invitation

Matt Love NSP Meditations

Not too long ago, I hired Jacob from the Old Crow Book Club to commandeer another piece of art screwed into a light pole near a mini homeless encampment. Cost? $25. It took him a day to deliver it to my front door. What an excellent new addition to my collection, although perhaps a bit too abstract for me.

When I placed the order, Jacob told me he had established a new campsite in the neighborhood. It was situated along a creek and defended on all sides by railroad tracks, Highway 99, slabs of of concrete, and another creek. Jacob told me he had also camouflaged the entrance to keep out the freaks and vampires.

I knew exactly where his campsite was located. He must have run a gauntlet of 70-mph traffic and freight trains every time he accessed it during daylight. But that danger meant solitude and Jacob loved solitude.

Jacob updated me on his present legal dilemma. He was still waiting for a spot in a residential drug treatment center somewhere in the city. This treatment had been mandated by the courts as part of his sentence for violating his probation on a DUI rap. He was eager to enter treatment but one open spot didn’t exist currently and thus he was violating his probation and racking up more fines. It was all frustrating and discouraging, but he remained positive and wanted to get back to work when he cleared everything up with the bureaucracy—if that was possible.

I asked him if he was destroying the riparian area along the creek. He knew of my absolute loathing for that malicious habit practiced by many homeless miscreants.

He told me he hadn’t cut down a single branch. He had tied up branches with rope to create a canopy to shade him from the sun, and the rain coming this winter. He rotated his campsite regularly to avoid soil compaction. No litter anywhere. No fires. He dug a pit toilet and moved it every few days.

“Matt,” he said, “I’d like you to see my home.”

I didn’t hesitate. “I’d love to see it.”

What does one bring as a housewarming gift to a homeless man’s new home along a creek?

Christ! I thought of a million things he might need to survive, even prosper. One day, Jacob would make it off the streets and out of the willows. He was fighting a 50-round welterweight fight against many heavyweight opponents, including his own personal demons. But I was in his corner. Call me a cut man. Everyone needs a great cut man (or woman) in their corner.

September 6, 2024

Semi Topless Stranger in the Park

Matt Love NSP Meditations

My mind meandered as Elmer and I headed toward Johnson Creek Park on an extended walk to begin our day. I was thinking about Robert Heinlein’s science fiction novel Stranger in a Strange Land. I had finished reading it for the first time the previous night and was shocked by the story’s laughable sexism and how cornball the dialogue sounded. Still, somehow, 63 years after its original publication, this so-called classic somehow got contemporary America right—a society of charlatans and carnies staging sideshows (live or via software) and ripping off a mob of suckers and rubes. In the novel, the mob eventually stones a dimwitted Christ-like figure to death because he offered free love as the answer to eternal happiness.

I’d discovered Stranger in a Strange Land for sale on the $1 table outside my local bookstore. Elmer was with me on an afternoon walk and it was either Heinlein and sci-fi or a 900-page historical novel by Herman Wouk.

I chose the stars, or in the case of this novel, Mars.

When we set out, the sun was a mushy orb barely visible in a haze of wildfire smoke. The sky was turning the color of a molding peach. (I had three in the refrigerator for reference.) Elmer was a little wild on the leash. He wanted to run! Going on eight months with my husky, we’d left behind our Meet the Beatles beginnings and adventured into Revolver territory. When we reached The White Album, well, the book-length walking prose haiku I am writing about our encounters with the homeless would be complete.

On our way to the park, we passed the mini encampment of one van, one truck, one tiny trailer and one tent. A dozen opened and unopened cans of chili stood upright on a sidewalk near a Weber grill. Why not? Our boys at Valley Forge would have killed for canned chili. All they had to eat was tree moss and owl’s heads.

We entered the park. I glanced left and saw the creek trickling. I then glanced right and saw a woman lying on the grass with a sleeping bag draped over her lower body. She was almost topless. A black skein of some garment concealed absolutely nothing.

She was awake, fiddling on her phone. A wagon and grocery cart, both crammed with possessions, rested near her.

Our eyes met. I said good morning. She said good morning and smiled. There wasn’t trace of meth or fentanyl derangement in her face. I estimated her age at 30, but who knew for sure. She had flowing black hair, huge eyes, broad shoulders and gigantic breasts. She bore an uncanny resemblance to a soothsayer from the Oregon Coast I once knew.

A long gone American word blasted into my brain—pinup. This voluptuous homeless woman lying on the grass near a creek looked like a pinup. Grade A Betty Grable cheesecake.

There was nothing more to say, to the woman that is. There was a helluva lot more to say to Elmer about it on the walk home.

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Teacher of the Year: A Novella

By Matt Love

A reluctant teacher becomes advisor to a moribund high school newspaper. He meets the new editor, a dynamic 18-year-old senior, and together they begin a unique creative collaboration that revives the publication and slowly slides into gray areas. As the poet Octavio Paz wrote, “To realize itself, love must violate the rules of our world...committed by two stars that break out of the conception of love, which implies breaking away and a catastrophe..."

Teacher of the Year
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Teacher of the Year unfolds in an energetic mixture of epistle, stream-of-consciousness, narrative and meditations on the craft and alchemy of teaching. There is no other more authentic literary exploration into the agonies and ecstasies of teaching in the annals of American literature than this novella.


A Substantial but Incomplete Autobiography in Poems

By Matt Love

In perhaps the largest, most eclectic volume of previously unpublished poetry in the history of Pacific Northwest literature, Matt Love presents 148 poems written over a 30-year span.

As he writes in the introduction to A Substantial but Incomplete Autobiography in Poems, “I have organized this collection into six categories: Ocean, Love, My Life, Oregon Tavern Age, Homelessness, Probation. These poems serve as a substantial but incomplete autobiography.”

“Confessionals, odes, scatological doggerel, polemics, tankas, haiku, prose, psalms, requiems, observations, love letters, lamentations, lyrics, stream of consciousness, meditations, lists, riffs, a eulogy, a sermon, a commencement speech, found poetry, tributes, elegies. I threw it all into an ancient cement mixer and hand cranked that concrete beast while watching blue herons undulate overhead and drinking red wine as the husky snoozed in his dirt fort. The result: A Substantial but Incomplete Autobiography in Poems, something merging where Charles Bukowski, Richard Hugo, Mary Oliver and Liz Phair blend together.”

None of Love's poems were ever submitted to poetry journals, contests or magazines, making this collection a true renegade project of passion and readable to any denizen of a coastal dive bar.

A Substantial but Incomplete Autobiography in Poems

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