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July 10, 2024

A Gift of Sunglasses

Matt Love NSP Meditations

I am sitting at picnic table outside a dive bar in my neighborhood. I am writing this in real time as I sip a local IPA.

It’s Sunday, noon, and 75 degrees.

Across the street a young shirtless homeless man with a leashed black dog pulls a grocery cart laden with bags of cans and possessions. He stops to check out the menu of a popular breakfast joint that is packed inside and out. A waitress gives him the evil eye. Homeless people don’t order to go…

…until they do. I see it all the time.

The man peruses the menu and then sets it on a table. No order. He pulls his cart through an intersection. The dog helps him pull.

Farther down the street, on a slice of concrete abutting the wall of a convenience store, an elderly homeless Hispanic man is asleep or passed out, He has been that way since 6:30 in the morning when Elmer and I passed him on the way to the dog park. He’s been this way for a week.

Next to the Hispanic man, another elderly homeless man is slumped over in his motorized scooter, apparently passed out.

Here comes a homeless Black man in his 20s carrying a bag of cans and smoking a cigarette. He is clad on all denim, including a cap. He’s not really walking, he’s strutting.

A block away, I see a Black homeless man approach a car stopped at red light. I see him talking to the driver. I see the driver’s hand extend sunglasses out the passenger-side window to the homeless man. He tries them on, nods, shouts, does a little James Brown shuffle, and skips away. I think it might be the most beautiful, subtle gesture of humanity I’ve ever witnessed in connection to the homeless.

I often get down writing about this subject. But when I see sunglasses as an improvised gift like that, well. I am not giving up hope. There was reciprocation in that exchange. That’s the key. That’s the only way we’re getting out of this. They both held out hands.

July 8, 2024

Reading Hart Crane with the Husky

Matt Love NSP Meditations, Poetry

A hundred degrees.

I sit in the shade

of the ginkgo tree

and drink a glass of red wine

while reading Hart Crane’s poetry

for the first time.

I picked up a copy for $1.57

at the Portland Goodwill Bins,

a bizarre, teeming place where people purchase items by the pound,

of all the unsold in Goodwill stores across the Western United States.

This is their last stop.

If unsold here, they will find their way into the fire

to cushion the fall on the playgrounds

because bark chips doesn’t cut it anymore.

Some of the shoppers at the Bins look like super models,

others look homeless.

High school kids on dates.

An old Mexican men with a shopping cart full of cleats.

The Vietnamese woman with a basket full of purses.

Inmates doing community service.

Bibliophiles searching for a first edition

of US Grant’s memoir,

the one he wrote on cocaine.

I can’t understand a single line of Hart Crane’s poetry,

even the one about Melville’s grave,

and I’ve been there.

Wait! Here’s a line I understand!

Preferring laxatives to wine

all america is saying

“how are my bowels today?

What interests me more in poetry

would be a poem about the Goodwill Bins,

but the poet would have to

get the smell right,

the frenzy,

the Walt Whitman democracy,

and no living poet in the nation can do that.

What also interests me in poetry at the moment

is the husky,

he’s chasing bees in the

clover

oregano

lavender

he’s throwing up a green apple that just fell to the ground,

he’s mangling the wading pool filled with water,

he’s carrying a football in his teeth like Barry Sanders

used to run between the tackles.

Yes, the Bins and the husky are way more interesting as poetry than Hart Crane’s poetry.

What really interests me about Hart Crane

is that he got bad reviews for a book of poetry,

and on a spring day in 1932,

took off his coat at noon,

and jumped off a ship bound to New York from Havana.

Body never found.

If only he could have written a poem about that.

July 4, 2024

Proposed Constitutional Changes to Save the Republic (if it’s worth saving) on the 4th of July

Matt Love NSP Meditations

Term limits (15 years) for Supreme Court Justices. Mandatory retirement at 65. No outside income or gifts allowed while a Justice. All oral arguments televised.

Congress strips Supreme Court of cases involving personal privacy and creates a new federal court to hear these cases. Congress has the power to create courts and what cases they can hear (e.g. bankruptcy courts)

Abolish the electoral college. This should have happened 125 years ago. Voters in North Dakota shouldn’t have six times the electoral power of voters in California. The electoral college is the root of everything wrong in national politics today, everything.

Puerto Rico and DC should become states. These millions of US citizens (almost all of color) are almost totally disenfranchised.

End the President’s power to pardon and commute sentences.

Increase the number of elected US representatives by at least 50 members.

All candidates for federal office must release their tax returns.

One six-year term for President.

Add a Constitutional amendment that gives Congress to regulate absolutely all donations for campaigns for federal office.

Add a Constitutional that a President can have no other sources of income while in office, only his salary.

Add a Constitutional amendment banning the filibuster in the Senate and House (if they ever choose to enact it) and every other rule where a majority of votes doesn’t pass legislation, excluding specially-designated votes like expelling a member of Congress (takes two thirds).

Add a Constitutional Amendment that Congress meets five days a week, a minimum of eight hours a day, excluding a two-week summer, two-week holiday recesses.

Add a Constitutional amendment that prevents either chamber of Congress from shutting down government over budgetary spending/or raising the debt ceiling if agreement cannot be reached. If Congress cannot pass budget then it automatically reverts to the previous passed budget with a 5% spending increase. Likewise, if agreement isn’t reached to raise debt ceiling, then it automatically rises to previous year’s amount.

July 2, 2024

Nestucca Spit Press 4th of July Blowout Sale!

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Readers:

Nestucca Spit Press, an independent Oregon publisher for 22 years, is offering a 4th of July special two for one sale. Purchase any of the titles below and receive another one for free. (Just leave a note with the order via PayPal) I’ll also thrown in a hand-crafted Oregon-themed bookmark and other goodies.

Thank you for your support and head to the website and place your order today!

Matt Love, Publisher.

Available titles:

Choice Cuts of Oregon Fiction

The Old Crow Book Club

Psychedelic Chipmunk

A Nice Piece of Astoria

Oregon Tavern Age

The Great Birthright

The Gigging Life

The Savage of State Street

Sonny and the Big Clean-up (ebook)

Oregon Coast Christmas Tales

Rose City Heist (ebook)

The Teaching Maxims of Karl Love

The Bonnie and Clyde Files

Of Dogs and Meaning

July 1, 2024

A Socialist Nine Holes of Golf

Matt Love NSP Meditations, Sports

My camping sojourn to the Southern Oregon concluded on a spectacular note: I played nine holes of golf at the Cedar Bend Golf Club in Ophir and I played damn well.

The club is cooperatively owned and quite successful, a delicious irony considered its location in Curry County, one of the most reactionary places in Oregon. I suspect most of the members are Trumpian supporters and boy do they see first hand how socialism can benefit their lives. No absentee rapacious private ownership draining all the profits. All the profits get plowed into maintaining the course and it is in immaculate condition, the greens much better than the Sunriver course I played last summer.

I teed off at eight in the morning after seeing the sun rise on Bailey Beach with Elmer the husky.

Dew was on the ground. Songbirds sang. Birds of prey flew overhead. I played alone. Another solo golfer started before me. He played way too slow so I played through. Nice guy. He works for the Forest Service and gets a round in before work every morning, rain or shine.

I was rusty on the first two holes then found a groove except for putting. I saw bear and coyote scat on the fairways. I heard Cedar Creek (renamed from Squaw years ago over objections from the locals. Fuck em!) gurgle its way to ocean.

It didn’t take me long to remember how enjoyable it is to play golf alone. I did it all the time in my 20s at various courses around Clackamas County. I don’t think that’s possible in the metro area of Oregon anymore. Too many people.

I talked to myself aloud. On one short par 4 I said, “I am going to birdie this son-of-bitch!” I ripped a drive, hit an 8-iron within 12 feet and lipped out the birdie try! Then I parred the number 1 handicap hole to conclude the round.

If only that course was within an hour drive of Portland. But if it was, it would be privately owned by some golf conglomerate, double the price of $30 for nine holes, and I’d have to schedule a tee time. I just walked on!

Next socialist golf course to play: Reedsport. I bet I could get a great feature called “The Socialist Golf Course of the Oregon Coast” out of playing all these player-owned courses.

Now if they’d do the same for bowling alleys in rural Oregon areas. Socialist bowling!

June 27, 2024

Nothing Gold Beach Can Stay

Matt Love NSP Meditations

Robert Frost wrote, “Nothing gold can stay.

He was right in perhaps the truest line of American poetry ever written.

I visited Gold Beach not to long ago and camped in a tent with Elmer the husky in the same RV park where I lived for three years, a special disheveled place populated with interesting (mostly Trumpian characters) and dilapidated RVs, including one of them mine, a 1978 Minnie Winnie.

I became somewhat of an expert on RV living in disheveled RV parks and often surprised myself by how much my experience drifted into my writing. I loved the minimalist life in my RV and residing a block from the ocean didn’t hurt either.

But that time is over. I live in the big city now and help care for my dad. Also over is the wonderfully sublime scene of the RV park. The owner and manager died a year ago, and well, the new manager isn’t as vigilant keeping out the meth miscreants. In fact, I camped not too far away from several in much the same way Marlon Perkins camped not far away from wild game on Mutual of Omaha’s Wild Kingdom. There was no story in it, just irritation.

I’ve often wondered if I’ll return to the RV life after my Portland days have concluded. I am beginning to think not. I did it and did it with unique improvisational style when my very existence seemed very much in doubt. There is no going back to that time. Those circumstances are long gone.

Other Gold Beach gold that didn’t stay:

My good Gold Beach friend Earl, a wonderful and original poet is also gone. He died a few weeks ago.

Turkey’s, the tavern up the Rogue River, is also gone, although it’s still there. I stopped by for a beer in a tiny joint that I have described in print as the greatest tavern in Oregon and probably the last one that serves only beer and wine, and not even beer on tap anymore. All the great storytellers I met there are dead or gone. There is nothing but NASCAR, a building on the verge of collapse, and mental decrepitude in the form of support for Donald Trump. The man really has killed off so many great attributes of American life in rural areas. They are never coming back. Gold turned to lead.

The Free Pool Sunday event at the Sea Star lounge in Gold Beach, one the great storytelling venues I’ve ever come across is also gone. No, the event still goes on, I attended, but the heyday as I knew it vanished a few years ago. Now it’s just gambling and Trump bullshit. I must have written a half million words at the corner table, the one near the library and boasting a sliver of an ocean view. When I sat there recently, nothing. No inspiration. No crazy locals or weird tourists or addled homeless people.

The point is: these glory days came and went. I have let them all go. There’s no need to ever to return to the RV park to camp or to drink a beer in the Sea Star or hope someone tells an osprey story in Turkey’s.

What remains golden about this area is the remote beaches and how I have new memories of them with Elmer. We are creating new gold. Such as:

Nesika Beach at 4:50 a.m. and discovered one of the greatest driftwood forts of all time.

Pistol River Beach at 7 and beheld the most mysterious and interchanging mouth of river in Oregon, or the whole country for that matter.

The beach at the South Jetty of the Rogue River at 10:30 and saw strange young men vaping dank weed as ospreys dived into the river a few feet away.

Bailey Beach at dawn and saw shades of purple, red, and blue reflected on the sand.

Oh, and I almost forgot, nine holes of golf in the early morning on a socialist golf course in the middle of beautiful Southern Oregon Coast nowhere. I played damn well! A damn fine new golden memory.

Nothing gold can stay, but you can make new gold.

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Teacher of the Year: A Novella

By Matt Love

A reluctant teacher becomes advisor to a moribund high school newspaper. He meets the new editor, a dynamic 18-year-old senior, and together they begin a unique creative collaboration that revives the publication and slowly slides into gray areas. As the poet Octavio Paz wrote, “To realize itself, love must violate the rules of our world...committed by two stars that break out of the conception of love, which implies breaking away and a catastrophe..."

Teacher of the Year
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Teacher of the Year unfolds in an energetic mixture of epistle, stream-of-consciousness, narrative and meditations on the craft and alchemy of teaching. There is no other more authentic literary exploration into the agonies and ecstasies of teaching in the annals of American literature than this novella.


A Substantial but Incomplete Autobiography in Poems

By Matt Love

In perhaps the largest, most eclectic volume of previously unpublished poetry in the history of Pacific Northwest literature, Matt Love presents 148 poems written over a 30-year span.

As he writes in the introduction to A Substantial but Incomplete Autobiography in Poems, “I have organized this collection into six categories: Ocean, Love, My Life, Oregon Tavern Age, Homelessness, Probation. These poems serve as a substantial but incomplete autobiography.”

“Confessionals, odes, scatological doggerel, polemics, tankas, haiku, prose, psalms, requiems, observations, love letters, lamentations, lyrics, stream of consciousness, meditations, lists, riffs, a eulogy, a sermon, a commencement speech, found poetry, tributes, elegies. I threw it all into an ancient cement mixer and hand cranked that concrete beast while watching blue herons undulate overhead and drinking red wine as the husky snoozed in his dirt fort. The result: A Substantial but Incomplete Autobiography in Poems, something merging where Charles Bukowski, Richard Hugo, Mary Oliver and Liz Phair blend together.”

None of Love's poems were ever submitted to poetry journals, contests or magazines, making this collection a true renegade project of passion and readable to any denizen of a coastal dive bar.

A Substantial but Incomplete Autobiography in Poems

Print Edition

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