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May 20, 2024

Our First Fort Together

Matt Love Driftwood Forts, NSP Meditations, Oregon Beaches

Elmer the husky and I hit the beach at 5:45 in the morning.

I have always felt that engaging with the world in the early hours around dawn has proved to be one of my greatest creative assets.

The sun poked through clouds hovering over the Coast Range. No wind. The waves rolled in flat, almost nonchalant.

A high tide thwarted vehicles driving down the beach for kicks and clamming.

We had the beach all to ourselves. I let Elmer off the leash and off we went for miles. He stuck near me and often we romped together. He’s the most playful dog I’ve ever owned.

In moments at the ocean’s edge with this dog, I feel my mojo gaining more and more strength. One day, Elmer and I will be doing this daily or more.

Two golden eagles appeared. I saw driftwood scattered near some dunes and jogged over to investigate the prospects for fort building. Elmer bounded behind me.

The prospects looked excellent and I discovered a corral fort with the remains of a campfire inside.

I leashed Elmer to a log and went to work.

Twenty minutes later I stood back and admired my first fort constructed in almost a year. It wouldn’t host a campfire; it was more for contemplation, to stare at the ocean and consider nothing or consider how to get straight with one’s self or others. About ten thousand times more useful than the pablum vomited by high-priced therapists telling people how to live when they have no idea how to live right in the world. It’s one of the great cultural farces of American life the past half century.

I sat on the fort’s front wall and talked to Elmer. I know we’ll relocate to the Oregon Coast one of these years. I also know what I require of locale: a good OTA joint, a library, a socialist golf course and remote beaches with plenty of driftwood so I can build and build more forts and put my record as the state’s greatest driftwood fort builder out of reach forever.

May 15, 2024

Chumming

Matt Love NSP Meditations

Perry stood near his domicile, an ingenious mini Conestoga wagon he’d rigged up on a tiny trailer. It had been his home for years and rested in front of an apartment building. The building owner allowed him to live there in trade for security, picking up litter, and some handyman tasks.

Elmer the husky and I were out for an afternoon walk through the park. A dilapidated RV and battered trailer that had been marooned across the street from the park for four or five months were finally gone—to side streets a few blocks away. How these rigs managed not to disintegrate during transit was unimaginable.

The place where the RV and trailer had formerly been parked once hosted a full blown encampment consisting of almost 20 rigs, vehicles, tents, and pallet shanties. I witnessed its sweeping almost 18 months ago, but now and then new domiciles for the homeless reappear.

Perry had been homeless in the neighborhood for almost 20 years. He survives by picking up trash every day, all day, and accepting donations for his labor. He typically wears a clip-on tie on the job. I give him a few bucks every time we meet and always have a brief conversation with him on a variety of subjects, but usually about homelessness.

The RV and trailer had been parked 50 yards away from Perry’s domicile. He’d lived near the encampment for several years and had also witnessed when it was swept. We talked about it later and Perry registered a level of disgust for those residents that shocked me. I mean, he loathed their garbage, hoarding, drug use, screaming at all hours, loud generators, general meth miscreant behavior, you name it.

It was almost the same level of disgust members of the Old Crow Book Club had for residents of the encampment, and when they revealed this particular attitude is when I learned there are distinct class divisions to homeless people and it typically falls along the lines of which drugs are consumed and if you practice a leave-no-trace kind of homelessness.

I walked up to Perry and introduced Elmer. I fished out a couple bucks from my wallet and handed them over. He thanked me and I thanked him.

Perry petted Elmer and then began warning me about walking the dog in the area; he was always finding needles or pills (presumably fentanyl) on the streets and sidewalks.

I asked him about the missing RV and trailer and he launched into a tirade about their squalor and their occupants, one of whom Perry claimed was an 80-year-old woman and I had no reason not to believe him.

But Perry didn’t stop there. He then began an angry riff about the meth and fentanyl zombies that he frequently encountered in the neighborhood.

“Don’t look them in the eye,” said Perry. “They will roll you and the next thing you know the cops will be at your door.”

I didn’t say anything and Perry continued.

“It’s like chumming for shit if you help these people.”

He asked me if knew what chumming meant, and I said I did.

I also knew he meant shit to stand in for sharks, bad human beings. I got the metaphor but wasn’t sure if I agreed with it or it made any logical sense. Chumming is for catching and killing sharks, not helping them. You can’t really chum a human being with smiles, kindness, favors, big favors, then reel them in and kill them, literally or metaphorically. Can you? I suppose a con man could.

And what happens if you chum a shark and it ends up eating you? Think Quint in Jaws.

I think Perry’s point was that helping some of the homeless and engaging them beyond a simple hello and giving them a few bucks can lead to getting burned.

Never once in all my interactions with the homeless, particularly members of the Old Crow Book Club, have I once feared of getting burned by helping them.

It was time for me and Elmer to leave. I told Perry to keep up the good work. As I walked away, I started thinking about the phrase, “chumming for shit.” I thought about it all the way home.

May 14, 2024

The Fixer Upper

Matt Love NSP Meditations

It was a sunny afternoon in Reedsport and Elmer the husky and I were on a walk through a neighborhood clustered with mobile home parks, one of the last options for affordable housing in rural areas of Oregon, but who knows how long that will last.

I was in a jaunty mood with my dog after a full day of researching Steve Prefontaine for an upcoming book and hitting some remote ocean beaches where Elmer went nuts and I thanked Tom McCall for his monumental role in preserving them for the public to use for free.

Down the street I noticed a hulking and dilapidated RV parked halfway on the sidewalk. No back license plates. A homeless rig either housing someone or abandoned, like they are all over Oregon in some of the strangest of places. (Entrance to Crater Lake National Park tops my list.) How people come to procure these battered rigs is the story of homelessness that currently fascinates me the most and I would love to make a documentary film about the subject.

What also fascinates me about this story is connected to something I observed with this rig: a power line was running from the rig to one of the trailers in the trailer park. Someone housed was rendering aid in the form of electricity, perhaps even water, and who knows else what. I see this kind of aid being rendered all the time. It is an almost totally undocumented story.

I have become a self-appointed expert on these kind of RVs and I speculated this one, named The Bounder, dated to the late 80s because of the design and color scheme (very Miami Vice).

The Bounder is one of my favorite names from the halcyon days of RV names from the 70s and 80s, names such as Diplomat, Vixen, Nomad.

Today’s RV names speak for themselves, and their era: Attitude, Volt, X-Streme! Maxx Ultra Lite. Torque.

We approached the rig from the rear and I thought about crossing the street because there wasn’t much room to pass it on the sidewalk. Then I saw the main door to the rig open and some cigarette or pot smoke twirl out. Someone was in there!

A story-gathering mood overtook me so Elmer and I made our way down the sidewalk. I stopped at the entrance and beheld a woman in her 70s sitting on the steps into the RV, dragging on a cigarette.

I said hello and she said hello. I peeked inside the rig expecting to see piles of shit,

It was completely empty, gutted down to the floors and walls!

I asked her about it. She told me she had ripped out everything except the kitchen sink. She was going to customize a 40-something old RV and make it her new home.

Oh to see that finished project!

She said she lived in the trailer park, and I got the feeling she was moving out because it was no longer affordable on her fixed income, although she didn’t say that.

One of her neighbors was letting her tap into power for various tools for the remodeling. Her place was too far away and the rig was too big to park in the park, so out on the sidewalk it had to go.

I asked her what year it was. Nineteen-eighty-six, she said. I told her I’d always loved the name Bounder and thought its logo of a crazy kangaroo with a crazy joey in the mama’s pouch was the best RV logo of all time. She smiled at that.

Elmer started getting impatient and I wished her good luck. Thirty yards away, I wheeled around: I had forgot to ask her how she had procured the Bounder! Fool!

I almost started to walk back and ask, but the moment had passed and I moved on. There will be many more times to ask this particular question.

May 8, 2024

The End of a Scene

Matt Love NSP Meditations

In recent weeks I have thought about the end of scenes in my life. By that I mean when a fabulous stretch of personal and cultural life comes to an end and you have to move on or risk becoming a relic, steeped in nostalgia. Doubtless there are folkies in Greenwich Village, acid heads in Haight Ashbury and grungers in Seattle who are still there doing the same shit.

I think back to the great scenes of my life, in no chronological order:

Free Pool Sunday at the Sea Star Lounge in Gold Beach.

The RV park.

Building driftwood forts on the Southern Oregon Coast.

The Friday Lunch Jam at Newport High School.

My high school tennis career.

The construction job near Port Orford.

The open mic at Cafe Mundo in Newport.

My decade-long duty as caretaker of the Nestucca Bay National Wildlife Refuge.

The Hamilton House on Lair Hill my senior year in college.

Dave’s house in NE Portland in the 90s.

The Tacoma House in Sellwood in graduate school.

The sidewalk near the convenience store where the Old Crow Book Club formed and convened. (I really miss that one!)

Is there another scene for me? I certainly don’t have one going on now. I have never gone about trying to begin one or find one. They tend to emerge and then evolve and then die.

May 6, 2024

Sonny and the Big Clean-up Day (New e-book released)

Matt Love NSP Meditations, Writing children's book, dog book, dogs, homeless, homelessness, oregon, Portland

Readers:

I announce the publication of my new e-book about homelessness, Sonny and the Big Clean-up Day, (A Story for Kids and Adults).

In the book, Sonny the husky discovers a homeless encampment destroying a creek in a Portland city park. She alerts her owner and a park ranger and inspires a community clean-up of the damaged riparian area. Neighborhood citizens and residents of the encampment join Sonny to restore a tiny part of a watershed and later celebrate their collaboration.

This book was inspired by my discovery of a children’s Lassie book published in 1970 where Lassie leads a litter clean-up of a national park on Earth Day. I wrote it in similar kid-friendly style, but perhaps with parody also in mind. I have long wondered how parents today talk to their kids about homelessness, since it is all around us. Perhaps this story will help.

Sonny and the Big Clean-up Day is available through Amazon and also through my web site via PayPal at nestuccaspitpress.com and right through this blog.

If you order it through my site you do not need an e-book reader. You will download the story in the E-pub or PDF formats and then easily read it on any device.

Thanks for your support of an independent Pacific Northwest publisher.

May 1, 2024

Oregon Tavern Age: Pre Lives!

Matt Love NSP Meditations, Oregon Tavern Age

I sat at a window table in a dive Portland bar with a well gin and tonic and worked on my book about Pre. I was preparing to read (again) Senator Hatfield’s lengthy and extraordinary Senate Congressional Record entry honoring Pre. A red-haired man sat at the bar and watched a rerun of a game show originally broadcast in the 1970s. In a far corner, an elderly woman lost money in a slot machine. The bartender stood in the kitchen rustling up tacos for a patron smoking outside. The dive’s décor consisted of almost entirely University of Oregon football corporate crap.

It was noon on a weekday. Brittney Spears’ “Baby One More Time” played on the jukebox.

I had printed out Hatfield’s entry and thought about bringing along a magnifying glass to read the tiny font, but decided otherwise. It might look weird in the dive, but then again, no one would really give a shit.

Barely enough light leaked through the filthy blinds so he angled the stack of papers in such a way that a neon sign for a crap corporate lager provided additional illumination. I put on his glasses and got down to business.

What an official tribute to a unique and influential inspiring American life! And all recorded in a publication that began when America began. I wondered if other American athletes had been accorded such an honor after their deaths. If so, then it meant their legacy transcended mere sports, statistics and championships, and that America had finally come around in some way or another for the better. Jim Thorpe, Jesse Owens, Jackie Robinson, Arthur Ashe, Hank Aaron and Muhammad Ali, for sure. Billie Jean King when she passes. Who else? Bill Russell? Of course Tommie Smith and John Carlos.

There Pre was in print and will remain.

I underlined key passages to include in the book. I was actually tearing up a bit as he read.

“Last Dance” from Donna Summer began playing.

The red-haired man formerly sitting at the bar materialized at my table and pointed at the papers.

He was anywhere from 30-60 years old and his face was riddled with meth scars and tiny boils. He flashed an incredible smile.

“How the fuck can you read that?” he said with gusto. “It’s so small. And what the hell is it?”

I laughed and explained the document as part of the official proceeding of the US Senate on July, 14, 1975 and that this particular section concerned the death of Steve Prefontaine. I was working on a book about him. Did the man know who Pre was?

“FUCK YEAH! I KNOW WHO PRE IS!” I WENT TO THE U OF O!”

He rolled up his left pant leg and revealed a tattoo of the University of Oregon’s classic Donald Duck look-alike logo that corporate flacks had eradicated decades ago when Duck football hit the big time. The same thing had occurred to the Oregon State University’s goofy beaver logo. Now the Duck and Beaver logos were fierce and menacing, instead of friendly and fun. Graphic designers had turned benign vegetarian creatures into savage human carnivores! Who wants to wear that on a t-shirt? Why the anger? What happened to our culture?

The man asked if he could read one of the pages. I handed one over.

“Holy shit! You got your work cut out for you.”

I agreed.

“PRE HELPED SAVE MY LIFE!” said the man. He was more shouting than speaking. “THE DRUGS!”

The writer stared into that lunar landscape of a face and knew the man was telling the truth. Who lies about deriving inspiration about Pre?

“You got to write that fucking book!” said the man. “I’ll buy it and I don’t even fucking read!”

The man gave me a little tap on his shoulder for encouragement.

It was the first time I’d experienced that sort of thing. It felt damn good.

I told him I would finish the book, and was about ready to ask the man the details of of Pre’s crucial influence on the man’s current sobriety when he wheeled around and flew out the door.

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Teacher of the Year: A Novella

By Matt Love

A reluctant teacher becomes advisor to a moribund high school newspaper. He meets the new editor, a dynamic 18-year-old senior, and together they begin a unique creative collaboration that revives the publication and slowly slides into gray areas. As the poet Octavio Paz wrote, “To realize itself, love must violate the rules of our world...committed by two stars that break out of the conception of love, which implies breaking away and a catastrophe..."

Teacher of the Year
Amazon's Kindle Edition $6.99

Teacher of the Year unfolds in an energetic mixture of epistle, stream-of-consciousness, narrative and meditations on the craft and alchemy of teaching. There is no other more authentic literary exploration into the agonies and ecstasies of teaching in the annals of American literature than this novella.


A Substantial but Incomplete Autobiography in Poems

By Matt Love

In perhaps the largest, most eclectic volume of previously unpublished poetry in the history of Pacific Northwest literature, Matt Love presents 148 poems written over a 30-year span.

As he writes in the introduction to A Substantial but Incomplete Autobiography in Poems, “I have organized this collection into six categories: Ocean, Love, My Life, Oregon Tavern Age, Homelessness, Probation. These poems serve as a substantial but incomplete autobiography.”

“Confessionals, odes, scatological doggerel, polemics, tankas, haiku, prose, psalms, requiems, observations, love letters, lamentations, lyrics, stream of consciousness, meditations, lists, riffs, a eulogy, a sermon, a commencement speech, found poetry, tributes, elegies. I threw it all into an ancient cement mixer and hand cranked that concrete beast while watching blue herons undulate overhead and drinking red wine as the husky snoozed in his dirt fort. The result: A Substantial but Incomplete Autobiography in Poems, something merging where Charles Bukowski, Richard Hugo, Mary Oliver and Liz Phair blend together.”

None of Love's poems were ever submitted to poetry journals, contests or magazines, making this collection a true renegade project of passion and readable to any denizen of a coastal dive bar.

A Substantial but Incomplete Autobiography in Poems

Print Edition

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